Ok so here's an update to my life.. I fell into a huge depression and ended up not sleeping for many nights because I was staring up at my ceiling wondering what exactly I was doing with my life. And I couldn't answer my own questions about my life and that upset me. So I stayed up wondering about who I really am and what I really want to do. I ( Read more... )

This is me trying to convince myself that I am not sick. And I will not be sick this Christmas. I'M NOT SICK! IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD!............ OK didn't work. Still feel shitty. I hope this gets better before tomorrow. If my niece gave me the effin' flu I'm going to cry ( Read more... )

It's very rare for me to actually get to sit down and do something I like to do. But it seems I'll be getting my chance. I'll be celebrating making it through my second semester of college with A's and Christmas, the upcoming New Year and something else that is very important to me. Relaxation. On December 24th, 2004...Christmas Eve after 6 PM I ( Read more... )

I think I attacked myself in my sleep. I hurt all over. And I'm getting sick. My niece decided to share her germs with me. I feel so shitty. I'm in class. I miss my boyfriend.

Tree is up. Not decorated and in all my years of living..this will be the first year I can not decorate the tree with my family because my dad didn't take the decorations down on sunday and that was really the only day I could do it. The rest of the week I'll be in class and at work when they are home. So I won't be able to decorate. But my dad got ( Read more... )

This semester ends the twenty third of december and theeeeeeeen we don't go back until January 10th. I'm so excited. Vacation!!! I get to sleep in and rest and I still have to work but atleast there isn't homework to worry about and all that. That way I have time to read my books. I'm on the fourth one and then Jim gave me the fifth one so when I'm ( Read more... )

Well it's been a long time since I've gone with my parents to get a Christmas tree but this year I went. We had a good time, or... atleast my mom and I did. And it was all well and good until my dad started in with his anger issues. But then more stuff happened that I can't remember and last night my mom, my dad, and I went looking at keyboards.. ( Read more... )

This morning.. I ate breakfast with my dad.. odd? Yes. good? Yes. So there.

Went out with Jenny and keith. Did some of my christmas shopping. James is coming home soon .. Jenny is a lot happier when she thinks about that. Lots of christmas anger and cheer flying around. But we had a damn good time. Did lots of things but I can't write about that yet because some of it will give away my boy friend's christmas present. So ( Read more... )

We lose a lot of things in life and we take for granted what we have. I wake up every morning with the same thoughts in my head. And go to bed with those same thoughts again. I cried today. A lot really. I'm tired. I'm worn out. I can't be strong anymore. I need a week of vacation. I don't want to be in school tonight and I don't want to be at home ( Read more... )