tonight has been ungodly insane.
mertz eight is so wasted + thank god they are all [as far as i know] finally passed out in their beds.
it's 4:50 in the morning + i need to take a 2 hour/40 minute nap before i officially start my next day.
night :]

chicago is love ( Read more... )

i was going to post this cute little entry about someting i found out, but then my unconfident side gave in + wasn't sure if it'd be worth it... or if the whole thing would click with you.

so i didnt.

[end story]
[begin more psych studying]

I wish I could stay here forever, not because I love it or because it's amazing.
but because I am scared to go home and be lost.

I've run out of ways to try.
I hate the idea of this being unfixable.

I'm upset and somewhat sick of everything.
I try to take a optimistic view, but it all fails.

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I have come to the realization that I am scared.
I also feel like you don't know me anymore, and that it doesn't bother you at all.
I don't want to be one of those people that you hand off to others.

Today I regret coming here.
I take the blame for my emotions.

I saw these friends at the mall today.
They were so happy to be with each other.
I miss that.

I like it here, it's just not the same.
This isn't Troy. They aren't my boys. There is no boca.

I hate that I don't realize how important things are to me until they're gone.

what the hell ( Read more... )