Clutching my stomach Dad and I road in silence to Mother's house. He attempted to ask why my purse was so important and why I needed it so much. I simply told him that it wasn't up for discussion.

It was hard looking out my window, I couldn't see past a foot from me, with all the fog, a nice day for photos.

I hate how I've gotten my mother's genes ( Read more... )

It's nearly been two hours since I took my socks off, and ran out of my house, slamming the door behind me. I did just what Amy told me too.

I got out.

I walked for nearly a half an hour, at least a mile, barefoot, in nothing but a flannel, at 9:30 in the cold Maine winter night.

All because of a stupid usual family fight.

The night started out ( Read more... )

After reading my previous entry, Ryan IMed me with extremely appreciated advice, like I had suspected.

The conversation lasted for a while, he apologized for being busy with his girlfriend and satisfied me with comfort as always. I find it amusing how I finally find a "rock" as he puts it, someone who's always there for me, to comfort and advise ( Read more... )

Well, it seems like it's possibly the end of Samantha Downs and Ethan Fowler. He claims it's awkward when we talk sometimes.

I'm not sure how he could feel awkward with talking with me? It's always online. I wish he didn't feel that way.

I wish he wouldn't have made me feel as if he loved me, and he couldn't live without me, and he wanted/needed me ( Read more... )

Last night I stayed an extra half an hour from cheering. I had to put down all the chairs and tables in the cafeteria by myself.

For punishment.

For skipping Wednsday nights game for a night of pure orgasms.

Or, other wise known as, the My Chemical Romance concert.

I ended up going to Chad's school Wednsday afternoon, Steve called him down to the ( Read more... )

Cheering's been frusterating, our first game is tonight.

We're not ready.

I went to gymnastics for the first time last night, and it was extremely exciting. Mum picked up Andy and Josh and we drove to Jill's. Debbie brought us down to Andy Valley. Alyce, Elise, Shelly and Deanna came along as well.

Because it was everyone's first tumbling lesson, ( Read more... )

Yesterday I spent the day with Nathan.

I arrived at his house at around 3:30. We stayed in his room, watching the home made Jack Ass video that he and his friends made. Which happened to include Chad. It was actually quite funny, in a stupid immiture way. My throat mysteriously got tight everytime I saw Chad.

I saw Drew's butt more times than I ( Read more... )

It's getting more and more difficult for me to update on a regular basis. With cheering everynight, and dance, and homework, I really don't have much time left on my hands.

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, things that need more considering, others that I shouldn't have to worry about all together.

The college thing seems to be under ( Read more... )

Life would be so much more enjoyable and easier for me if I didn't have to make choices.  If every right thing that I'd have to decide on, happened.

I finally met Ethan on Saturday. After nine months, we finally met.  I spent all Saturday morning, trying to find a ride to the mall, and setting up the time for when we would meet and where. It was ( Read more... )

I wish I was more dedicated to this livejournal. Actually, I wish I was more dedicated to a lot of things. Such as ballet.  I havn't put my pointe shoes on for at least five days, if I really want to do more with dance out of college, I should be dancing on my toes for at leaset two hours a night. Like Ethan with his guitar.

It's kind of odd ( Read more... )