im always laying there in this half sitting up, dazed possition, half watching the tv i have on to lull me to to sleep,smoking cigarettes, with this completely asleep body next to mine. and im always looking over at him, knowing how much he loves me, and how much i love him, and how i am so glad we get to spend every moment together. and how i am ( Read more... )

why do i do this to everyone?

what is it about me that enrages people, boys impraticular?

im so confused.

i just dont know what to do...what the fuck am i sposed to do??
what did i do to cause this?!?!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKING FUCKERS.

i hate myself sometimes.

there is nothing i can say right now that will make sense.

yet i feel compelled to write.

i just want.......

i just.....

just dont take me for granted....

oh please let this all turn out alright....

"this is the most amazing thing we've ever done"

oh my. its cold outside...and inside. im very cold. yet i want bubbletea.
mmm sweet sweet bubble tea.....

being a girl sucks when it comes to waking up in the middle of the nite because it feels like youve been shot in the womb.

i made brownies. i dont wanna go home anymore.

i was crying in public and a random boy came up to me hugged me and said:

"whatever is bothering you it will get better soon, i promise."

it breaks my heart that some random boy off the street has such empathy for me and knew exactly what to say and the one boy that should doesnt.....

its when you walk into a room see them and look the other way ( Read more... )

i'd be everything you want and i'd be everything you need.

they just dont care...

but i still do.

im going insane ( Read more... )

I HAVE TO PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.........

sometimes i am just far too impatient.

my kittens are amazing.