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[echoharmony]

ok, wow. You know you're really depressed when you have a complete emotional break down because you can't open a bottle of apple juice. And I blistered my hand.

I think I need help :( I'm trying to hard to help myself but I don't know if it's enough anymore. I'm so tired, in so much pain, I just don't know.

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[sheerchaos]

I hate it when there is nothing helpful to add or say. So I'll just say that based on reading your LJ over the years, I have tremendous respect for your strength and resiliency. Hang on, you can do it.

And if you need help - then get help. The #1 thing people say AFTER they have gotten help is "Why did i wait so long?"

[echoharmony]

well my two concerns about getting help are 1)I dont have insurance that will cover mental health and 2) I've been to therapists before, been on antidepressants before, and 'help' doesn't really help me. :(

[sheerchaos]

Help doesnt have to be anti-depressents and therapists. Help can be friends or Peer Counseling or family or religion or literature or community or something that doesnt work for anyone else.

We live in a culture that fetishizes "self sufficiency" but in the history of the world, people have mostly needed each other to lean on. Whether or not you need help - you deserve help.