So I'm still looking for a job...but not too hard. Natalie is coming in on Friday and I dont want to be working while shes here. I jsut wanna be drunk while she's here. I'm bored of this week already though. I think I might go to an AA meeting today, just for the hell of it. I could always use the extra kick in the ass to keep myself in check. ( Read more... )

So I was supposed to pick up Natalie from the airport tonight, in 3 1/2 hours....but she called me from Denver and said they didnt have her listed on any flights...so I checked her itinerary she emailed me, and realized her ticket isnt for this weekend - its for next weekend! DOH! I was really looking forward to it all day and now I have to wait a ( Read more... )

So I got a job interview on Friday, which is awesome. its for a job with the childcare program with the YMCA - it sounds like something I did for Campfire, the before and after school program. That would be awesome. Especially since I would be the supervisor and thats muy bueno ( Read more... )

Okay so I quit my job. The stress wasnt worth it. I was too upset all the time and always dreading the work days. I have to go to Seattle today to turn in my keys and record the last 2 hours I worked so I get paid for them...thats a whoppin' $20 and at this point I need as much as I can get ( Read more... )

Damn I was drunk last night. two nights in a row...hmm...something must be up, i never drink like that anymore. I dont remember writing that cheesy post last night but i'll leave it up, its funny ( Read more... )

I'm afraid at night. Nik always goes to bed before me, he always falls asleep before me and I am left alone in the dark withj the noise and with the sirens that might someday be coming for me. I'm left with the silence and with my thoughts and theres no more booze left in the house.

Natalie is coming to visit me a week from tomorrow. I am so excited, even though I know I'll spend too much money and get way too drunk for way too long while she's here. Oh well...thats part of best friends coming for a visit, right?? She had a crummy birthday and both of us are down in the dumps and in need of each other...we've known each other ( Read more... )

I really wish I was drunk right now, but I dont feel like going through the process of getting drunk.

I need some friends. and fast.

I'm so sad lately and its driving me crazy. I have high anxiety, I'm more sensitive than usual, and I have no motivation to do anything.