Long time...
So I suppose its been forever and a year, or... maybe just a year since I updated this....
I dunno... i was just in the mood to talk tonight. I know most everyone i've friended way long ago, and people who prolly really don't care are going to get this in their friends page and be like wtf, so most of what i say will go under a cut... lol
You know its funny... my mom and I were discussing IQs today... aparently when i completed the IQ test it came out to like... 146... my sisters was like 132ish and my moms is in the 180s... but my mom was positive mine was way lower then it should be... cuz i suck at tests... lmao
she got to telling me a story... about this study that the university of rochester was doing when i was a baby, about 3 months old.. This study was designed to tell you your baby's possible IQ based off their ability to concentrate on one thing for a certain ammount of time. The would sit the 3 month old baby in a room, turn off all the lights and have the kid watch this video of flying shapes that moved around a black screen. such as... here comes a blue triangle... *flys diagonally* oh! and now the red octogon... so in this dark room they would wait for the baby to fall asleep out of boredom and determine from their how smart the kid would be...
except i threw a wrench in their experiment. I, apparently loved the flying shapes... I would stare at them for hours... and i did... my mom fell asleep while i watched this shapes.. The people doing the experiment asked my mom not to bring me back... because i ruined their experiment... did a good job of pissing off my mom... lmao she was ranting about how you should change the experiment when you discover your wrong.. not just tell the person who told you you were wrong not to come back..
anyways, thats not what got me writing... though its partly what got me thinking this way.. my brother in law was mentioning today that i don't seem to enjoy dnd when i play with them. I do... i just don't enjoy it the same way... i enjoy watching what people do, seeing how they create this character, act it out, and then do marvelous things to defeat their enemy. sure i may not directly participate very deeply.. but i enjoy bearing witness to it.
which led me to my noticing other things in my life.. i like to think of myself as a leader... a person who is either in control, trying to be in control or forcing people to do what i want to do... and im slowly beginning to realize that, where that is what im trying to do... its not always when i have the most fun.. because again, i still enjoy watching the trial and tribulations of these people who have so much happening in their lives... this might come from only somewhat beginning to participate in life a few years ago, when i started getting off my computer and started having fun...
I enjoy what i do no matter what happens... and i watch just as well when i participate as when i don't... soon enough i might start writing... like really writing... seeing what comes out... what piece of human nature do i notice and savor the most?
so the point of the little... well... not so little entry is... that i should start writing... and i should let go more often. lmao it might be fun... to have my dnd character be one of the main roles... it might be fun to transcend before mike and sonja.. i think it'll go well...
YOSH!! new life goal!!! well.. not life really... new goal! actually TRY!!! yep.. im going to try...
ja~
I dunno... i was just in the mood to talk tonight. I know most everyone i've friended way long ago, and people who prolly really don't care are going to get this in their friends page and be like wtf, so most of what i say will go under a cut... lol
You know its funny... my mom and I were discussing IQs today... aparently when i completed the IQ test it came out to like... 146... my sisters was like 132ish and my moms is in the 180s... but my mom was positive mine was way lower then it should be... cuz i suck at tests... lmao
she got to telling me a story... about this study that the university of rochester was doing when i was a baby, about 3 months old.. This study was designed to tell you your baby's possible IQ based off their ability to concentrate on one thing for a certain ammount of time. The would sit the 3 month old baby in a room, turn off all the lights and have the kid watch this video of flying shapes that moved around a black screen. such as... here comes a blue triangle... *flys diagonally* oh! and now the red octogon... so in this dark room they would wait for the baby to fall asleep out of boredom and determine from their how smart the kid would be...
except i threw a wrench in their experiment. I, apparently loved the flying shapes... I would stare at them for hours... and i did... my mom fell asleep while i watched this shapes.. The people doing the experiment asked my mom not to bring me back... because i ruined their experiment... did a good job of pissing off my mom... lmao she was ranting about how you should change the experiment when you discover your wrong.. not just tell the person who told you you were wrong not to come back..
anyways, thats not what got me writing... though its partly what got me thinking this way.. my brother in law was mentioning today that i don't seem to enjoy dnd when i play with them. I do... i just don't enjoy it the same way... i enjoy watching what people do, seeing how they create this character, act it out, and then do marvelous things to defeat their enemy. sure i may not directly participate very deeply.. but i enjoy bearing witness to it.
which led me to my noticing other things in my life.. i like to think of myself as a leader... a person who is either in control, trying to be in control or forcing people to do what i want to do... and im slowly beginning to realize that, where that is what im trying to do... its not always when i have the most fun.. because again, i still enjoy watching the trial and tribulations of these people who have so much happening in their lives... this might come from only somewhat beginning to participate in life a few years ago, when i started getting off my computer and started having fun...
I enjoy what i do no matter what happens... and i watch just as well when i participate as when i don't... soon enough i might start writing... like really writing... seeing what comes out... what piece of human nature do i notice and savor the most?
so the point of the little... well... not so little entry is... that i should start writing... and i should let go more often. lmao it might be fun... to have my dnd character be one of the main roles... it might be fun to transcend before mike and sonja.. i think it'll go well...
YOSH!! new life goal!!! well.. not life really... new goal! actually TRY!!! yep.. im going to try...
ja~