I suppose I'm posting here cuz I wanna talk to people and no one is logged on.. which makes it rather frustrating... yesterday was an interesting day.. not particularily in a good way, but i don't feel as though the day should be called bad.
so I'm cutting this to make your lives easier if your friended and don't care.
now... Lets see if i can put this in a simple and organized manor. yesterday was my uncles birthday. So of course we had a party and of course it was over my grandparents house. I brought my computer so I wouldn't get bored because I can be social with the computer as well as without it. My sister had a worse day then me getting woken up at noon with a phone call from work saying "where are you? you were supposed to be here 30mins ago..." which sounds like a crappy way to wake up to me. But it meant she got outta work earlier today and had time to come to the birthday party before we bothered to sing. So here begins the issues.
My mom has to work because everyone she works with are either idiots or they're afraid of the one person they needa talk to. so she brings her laptop and is working at my grandparents house. Which means no one is helping my grandmother make the side dishes with dinner. My nephew, conner is also running around the house playing and getting into EVERYTHING... because his dad is the one barbecuing and my sister isn't back yet so she can't watch him. My grandpa tries a few times to get me involved in the dinner making process. Which i do, every time he tells me to. Then i go back to my computer and sit down.. he then asks me to watch conner so if he gets into stuff I have to be the one to take care of him. Conner being almost 1 year old, and the size of a 2 year old, can get at stuff a baby his age normally can't get to.
So, my grandpa tells me to help my grandmother and i do... then he tells me to get the kid and i do. and he does it over and over again. Finally sonja gets here, she says hi to everyone and goes to change outta her work clothes and comes back into the room... where conner is getting into everything. finnaly granpa is like "Maire come get conner!" witha very short tone of voice. and my reaction to that was "Why do I have to take care of him!? why can't his parents? he's got two!" so I'm holding conner and he's flailing himself outta my lap and trying to get away and im pissed cuz this is entirely not my job when BOTH parents are there.. so sonja takes him and then proceeds to get pissy. which tends to happen when she has to take her kids.
oh i should probably specify then when he was yelling at me to get the kid, i was playing with jenny and michelle cuz they were drawing. he was telling me that they didn't need taking care of and conner did, which was annoying cuz he acted like i was just loushing behind my computer.
so yes, eventually sonja starts getting pissy and asking where mike is.. and getting upset cuz he's cooking and can't take care of the kids. and im like... >___> they're your kids watch em. but i didn't say that... finally the foods all done and we discover that mike had already finished barbecuing and it was being kept warm in the oven while the other food finished. so she starts getting pissy-er. and goes to find him, prolly yells at him and then comes back to where the food is, slamming the door to grandma and grandpa's side of the house.
so, now my grandpa, who's obviously been penting up his pissed-ness explodes slightly towards sonja, saying she doesn't need to go slamming his doors and that this is bull shit. and sonja starts in on how first of all the door is heavy yadda yadda... so now she's pissed cuz of grandpa and mike, grandpa is pissed, and im like...wtf.
serious negative energy.
so we eat and everyone plays merry and im now very quiet. because i am not blind. I know what my grandfather was really mad about, and it wasn't sonja's slamming of the door. my grandfather, in my eyes was mad at me for not taking care of the kid when he asked, and then getting upset at him for asking. seriously the kids got two parents they could both be doing that job way better then me. so eventually my mom is saying somthing about the situation cuz were trying to figure out if my sister has left or not (which she did, and then came back.. which was good) and i mention that it was partially my fault that she got so pissy and such.
my mom... was trying to figure out how i had anything to do with sonja's attitude problem and i explain that grandpa had asked me to watch the kid, and i got pissy about it myself. and this gets my grandpa saying what he's been wanting to say for a while. "ive got a problem.. you come over here and sit behind your computer and ignore things... your grandma is making dinner and your not helping, and conner needs someone to watch him blah blah blah" so in a nut shell, he's mad cuz i didn't CONTINUALLY help my grandma with dinner.
so now im upset and quiet. cuz i get quiet when im upset.. or i can get loud. but i don't fight well. its just not how i work. i also get reallly tired.. which is one of the ways i deal with getting upset.. i go take a nap. so if i feel really horrible about somthing happening.. i'll go to sleep and hope that everything is better in the morning. but that doesn't help the fact that i am pissed at my grandpa now.
my granparents had two children. my mom and my uncle. my uncle has five children, three of which were at the party. one of which has two children and is a single very busy mom. however. Sammy and Julie didn't get yelled at for not helping my granma make dinner >___> only i did. and we don't normally help anyways, my mom does. so its rediculous to expect it of me because i dun have the slightest clue what im doing.. im like oh grandma ill do this for you and then she says no shes got it. how the fuck do i help that? so what the hell. on top of that he swore in front of three small young impressionable children at one of their mom's
so i took a nap... from the moment i got home till about 3am. because i was so annoyed.
so Part fucking 2 of my glorious day.
When i wake up, Andrew and i start talking.. and apparently alot of people at the con are unhappy with me. not because ive done stuff wrong. but because they felt like they needed to bash on me, as i understand. And ill say this. If you've got a gripe about me... take it up with me please... its hard to fix what i could be doing wrong without knowing what im doing wrong. >____> and if its just sarah getting back at me for stuff then she can stuff it cuz thats rediculous. and i've bashed on people before, not lying.. just as i've participated when others go on a bash hunt. but, i think ill do it less because it seems like a stupid thing to do at this point.
v_____v so im in a very blah depressed mood of annoyedness and confusion.