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Confession

Dec 28, 2005 00:25

I had a brief talk - maybe 10 minutes - with my father tonight. I'm leaving for Indiana, and thence Maryland, tomorrow, and he wanted to know if there was anything I needed to talk about. I said something like "Oh, everything's okay, I just wish I weren't so full of self-doubt", which launched a conversation whose central thesis was pretty much " ( Read more... )

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anonymous December 28 2005, 14:29:24 UTC

edg December 28 2005, 20:08:05 UTC

You're allowed to say disrespectful, improper things; that's why I'm screening comments. I'd rather people tell me the truth than be respectful. If I weren't willing to deal with the consequences of what I wrote, I wouldn't have posted it.

anonymous December 30 2005, 03:44:53 UTC

edg December 30 2005, 04:42:04 UTC

I think you've missed the point. Not all of these problems are of even remotely similar importance, impact, or severity, and I never implied that they were. Doing so would be absurd; of course embarrassing myself in front of my grade-school classmates isn't on a par with theft, lying, or hurting someone I cared about.

As for making amends - I can't. The "I'm afraid" wasn't an actual expression of fear; it was just an expression. I can't make amends, period, end of story. There is no possible way in which I can atone for hurting her. I can apologize, and I have done so more than once, in private and personal venues ( ... )