[... ffffff. ALL THE FEELS. And that persistent reminder there's a lot about her he doesn't know, not that it changes anything, but--punch in the gut.]
Uh, feel free to ignore this since we just met and all, but you're a really cool girl and you helped me without knowing it, I don't think.
Having an ability you can't always control isn't easy.
I don't know. I'm bad at this but if you need a distraction or hell, just want someone to have a drink with that won't ask questions you don't want, I'm around.
Yeah, guess they do. Lets just write off this whole week as an off week for me.
You think it's really that simple?
I'm not asking with any like I think you're wrong. I'm just- Maybe you feel bad at first and then you don't anymore. Maybe there's not a whole lot that separates someone who destroys and feels bad about it and someone who doesn't.
I don't know. I try not to think about it and maybe that's bad too.
Okay. Thanks. Now you'll regret that though if I contact you like ten years later or something.
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never coming out from hiding again. stupid fucking Rift.]
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Why would
I didn't
I'm sorry. I know you didn't mean to write this.
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;;
and she just can't even say.
what can she say? She feels sick.
But she also knows she can't just disappear, much as she really, really wants to. She owes them more than that.]
i'm sorry
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I'm just really [stunned and worried and stunned and maybe a little numb]
You don't have to apologize to me. Nothing you've done would change what
What you are to me.
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but I am sorry.
how is that even possible? [ngh feeling sicker rkje;a]
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Rachel, I'm
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I feel sick
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I'm really sorry, Jess.
This is
I'm angry the Rift had to make you say this.
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I'm sorry too.
I hate the Rift but maybe some things shouldn't stay secret forever.
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It's okay.
You do have a point there.
But some secrets should be told only when you feel ready to tell them.
It's never for the Rift to decide.
If you'd like to talk, you only need to ask.
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I know. That's true, but maybe I wouldn't have ever been ready to tell that one. I don't know. But you're right, it's not.
I'm not
I'm not very good at taking, but thank you. That means a lot.
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Having an ability you can't always control isn't easy.
I don't know. I'm bad at this but if you need a distraction or hell, just want someone to have a drink with that won't ask questions you don't want, I'm around.
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It's not, and it gets worse when you think you can control it and find out you were wrong.
I don't think you're bad at it. It's not like it's easy to
I don't know, but it means something that you're trying, y'know? Thanks for that. I think I'll have to take you up on that.
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You wouldn't be the first person to be wrong about it. You also wouldn't be the first person to do something with those powers you feel bad about.
Not that I want you to feel bad, but those that really do destroy, they wouldn't feel bad about it, y'know?
Sure. Take me up on it whenever you want. There's no expiration date on it or anything.
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You think it's really that simple?
I'm not asking with any like I think you're wrong. I'm just- Maybe you feel bad at first and then you don't anymore. Maybe there's not a whole lot that separates someone who destroys and feels bad about it and someone who doesn't.
I don't know. I try not to think about it and maybe that's bad too.
Okay. Thanks. Now you'll regret that though if I contact you like ten years later or something.
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