i still have so many problems ( Read more... )

after several mental breakdowns
i finally started to learn what i wanted to do
with my life
i passed math
with a "b," no less
but apparently
it's not good enough.
my ideas.
my passions.
my goals.
are never good enough.

FUCK YOU.
you and your vicarious ways.
i am not you, god damnit.
i
am
me.

the beach this weekend
was wonderful
from the point where the sky and the ocean collide
melting into each other
i could see everything.
i rekindled some dying embers
and terrible missed the warmth
of other flames.

♥

in other news. i miss viv.

we spent the whole ride telling each other what we love about each other
being in love is
beautiful
♥

official new age hippie.
i had sex in a tree.

and now i have sap on my arm.
♥

I have been tagged ( Read more... )

rain rain rain
yesterday i wrote
and wrote
what a beautiful
terrifying
draining
experiance.

just
like
love
♥

Dear Diary,
My life sucks
excuse me while i slit my wrist.
*tear*
*tear*
*tear*

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

in other news

prom was amazing.
want pics?
gimme a...message or something.
i love yous.

everything is different now.
we shared something bigger than i could have imagined.
please don't leave me
fallen at your feet
tell me i matter
THIS matters
because
to me
it's
everything
♥

i thought all the daffodils had died
but he found one for me
still
there's death
but life too
and the ocean
can't
die
♥