I forgot....

[edhelur]

I've forgotten so many things. A few nights ago, I looked through this journal from mid-2005 right through to August 2006. There were things I remembered, of course, and there were things I didn't remember. It seemed sort of strange, like being a voyeur on my own history. It wasn't depressing, at least not when I did it. And I didn't do it with the

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[isikenai]

I often look back on the past years in my life too, but for the opposite reason - I think for a lot of reasons I'm a lot more serious, perhaps more bitter, certainly sadder at this moment in time, and a lot less frivolous than I used to be. I kind of miss it, really. Sort of just bouncing along through life on a carefree high not having to work very hard. A few things though jolted me awake and taught me that suffering is pretty much a part of life. I think it's really useful to do these sorts of reflections sometimes.

I'm always happy to see how you are these days Edh :) You've been through so much and I think it's just made you stronger.

[edhelur]

thank you... *hugs*

Sometimes I like to think that I got my fair share of suffering out of the way, so I can have a "pretty good" next five years or ten years or whatever. I know that's all pretend, that concept of fairness and stuff.... but I guess it's better than feeling like I "should" be miserable.. *shrugs*

[isikenai]

No one deserves to be miserable. And once you've been down so low, often the only way to go is up. I'm of the opinion that everything happens for a reason though - to make us stronger, to teach us a lesson etc. so I guess my view is it's how you handle them that really counts. Doesn't mean there's no suffering though ;_;