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Sudden pregnancy is without a doubt the most selfish bond a woman can inflict on a man. And what really saddens me is not that this was an accident. It was an accident the same way falling off the cliff after deliberately leaning over it is an accident. And how convenient that you discovered this little sprog growing inside you only days after he broke up with you becase he couldn't handle your obsessive controlling nature. How convenient that you have been talking about your desire to have kids, and suddenly it happens. How convenient that you stopped taking the pill. How convenient that he came inside you. How convenient that you allowed it.
You've been with this guy for what... three months? Four? That's long enough to confidently say you're enjoying the relationship. It's not long enough to be able to say that you'll be able to stand him a year from now. You are emotionally unstable, severely insecure, and all kinds of paranoid when it comes to emotions. You lack moral compass, you lack any kind of comprehension about the world outside yourself and your own happiness and misery. You are a very lost little girl looking for a daddy. How convenient that his replacement is about to become one.
My contempt for your situation knows no bounds. Not because you're pregnant. Not because you weren't careful. But because your track record speaks volumes about your future. Your relationships end in severe unhappiness after the guy gets fed up with your paranoia and jealousy, in other words your emotional immaturity. And this guy, he's already insecure. He already suffers from panic attacks. And he has already said that you suck the energy out of his life.
Granted, you're back together now. Granted, he's found it in his heart to take you back. Obviously you are important to him on some level. Or maybe he's just decent enough to take responsibility. but how long before you realise this monstrous injustice you've thrown on him? Kids aren't a bad thing per se, but they are big. Much like throwing a tonne of food on a hungry person, you're not doing him any favours. So how long before you understand that you had no business bringing this upon him without his consent?
How long before you start wonderign if he's only with you because of the kid? How long before you start wondering if he's looking for somebody else, somebody who doesn't drive him crazy, somebody who didn't foist (Is that a word?) kid into his life? How long before your shame turns into anger because he refuses to be happy about this?
Have you any idea of the changes you're going to have to make in your life?
"Ah, no more partying then."
"no, not for a year".
in a year, I believe you will be about a month or so out of delivery. If you think you can go back to crazy drunkenness at that point, then either you're a pretty bad mother, or you're just incredibly naive. I'm feeling vicious today, so I'm opting for both. Women whine and bitch and moan about how men think with their cocks, but for every man who let's his cock do his thinking, there's a woman who let's her womb do hers. And the results may not be as stupid, but they tend to be rather insane, all the same.
Your decision to quit taking your pill without informing him, your decision to allow him to finish inside of you, your decision to keep the child, is a fucking blight. You disgust me.
But then,
you say he's happy, but terrified. Maybe he will look forward to this after all. Maybe this will work out. After all, children, much like war, has the potential of making somebody grow up really fast. There is a possibility that this might have been the best choice you ever made and that your life will come together after this. I seriously doubt it, though.
At least the kid will grow up knowing it wasn't an accident.
You've been with this guy for what... three months? Four? That's long enough to confidently say you're enjoying the relationship. It's not long enough to be able to say that you'll be able to stand him a year from now. You are emotionally unstable, severely insecure, and all kinds of paranoid when it comes to emotions. You lack moral compass, you lack any kind of comprehension about the world outside yourself and your own happiness and misery. You are a very lost little girl looking for a daddy. How convenient that his replacement is about to become one.
My contempt for your situation knows no bounds. Not because you're pregnant. Not because you weren't careful. But because your track record speaks volumes about your future. Your relationships end in severe unhappiness after the guy gets fed up with your paranoia and jealousy, in other words your emotional immaturity. And this guy, he's already insecure. He already suffers from panic attacks. And he has already said that you suck the energy out of his life.
Granted, you're back together now. Granted, he's found it in his heart to take you back. Obviously you are important to him on some level. Or maybe he's just decent enough to take responsibility. but how long before you realise this monstrous injustice you've thrown on him? Kids aren't a bad thing per se, but they are big. Much like throwing a tonne of food on a hungry person, you're not doing him any favours. So how long before you understand that you had no business bringing this upon him without his consent?
How long before you start wonderign if he's only with you because of the kid? How long before you start wondering if he's looking for somebody else, somebody who doesn't drive him crazy, somebody who didn't foist (Is that a word?) kid into his life? How long before your shame turns into anger because he refuses to be happy about this?
Have you any idea of the changes you're going to have to make in your life?
"Ah, no more partying then."
"no, not for a year".
in a year, I believe you will be about a month or so out of delivery. If you think you can go back to crazy drunkenness at that point, then either you're a pretty bad mother, or you're just incredibly naive. I'm feeling vicious today, so I'm opting for both. Women whine and bitch and moan about how men think with their cocks, but for every man who let's his cock do his thinking, there's a woman who let's her womb do hers. And the results may not be as stupid, but they tend to be rather insane, all the same.
Your decision to quit taking your pill without informing him, your decision to allow him to finish inside of you, your decision to keep the child, is a fucking blight. You disgust me.
But then,
you say he's happy, but terrified. Maybe he will look forward to this after all. Maybe this will work out. After all, children, much like war, has the potential of making somebody grow up really fast. There is a possibility that this might have been the best choice you ever made and that your life will come together after this. I seriously doubt it, though.
At least the kid will grow up knowing it wasn't an accident.