when did i start to hate myself so much?
and think i only deserve to be treated like shit?
i have no idea why i treat myself so badly.

heh.

I've been assuming everything ( Read more... )

but hoes and tricks.

i fuckin' hate this kid with a passion.
he thinks pretty girls will like him?????
i'm fucked up in the head.
i have ugly duckling syndrome.
WHAT THE FUCK????
you ain't gonna get this shit again.
gay-ass faggot.
hot chicks think you're fat!!!!!!!!!
because you are.

You've been around for such a long time now ( Read more... )

and he is...something else. and i have butterflies.
it's been like a year and a half since this
has happened.
i.love.it.

and i am finally over that loser
that is a total douchebag.
what a faggot.

it's one of those nights.
where nothing is right. and nothing
is happy.
and everything is sad.
ugh. it's killing me.

and it seems like every night is this way.

when i'm DRUNK!!!!!

close your eyes. open your heart.

so. fucking. true.

and he's smart and accomplished and wants
to get married yada yada yada.
he's p.e.r.f.e.c.t.
and he has nothing i want.

and there's this other boy.
and he's everything i don't need.
he's such a fuck-up. he's stupid.
he's not even a cool person.
but i have a heinous crush on him.

gah. i think about him 24-7.
gross.