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[eee_n]

Trying to move forward. It's not that hard, the path is set. The problem is endurance. Can I endure being told what to do by 16-year-olds? Can I hold up under the unenccessary stress that my pathetic job puts on me? I'm sure I can, but do I really want to? Yes! Yes, I do. I have to go through this one more time. It's the only way out of

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[mirror_untrue]

i wish there was a like button for your last sentence. are you into it again??

[eee_n]

I haven't touched it since April or May because the last time I did it I became more sick than I've ever been before. I had cold sweats, a massive headache and I could barely move. It was like I had a really bad flu bug. I ended up passing out on a bench on Yonge St. for about 5 hours and waking up next a puddle of white vomit.
The day before, D sold me some stuff. He said that he was giving me a deal because he gave me $20 for the price of $15. In actuality, I think he gave me probably $10 worth and the rest was lactose or whatever they normally cut it with. I think he probably cut it himself, as well, the asshole.
In the end, though, I think that getting so incredibly sick was a good thing because I haven't done it since.

[cornered_ego]

And what is your advice for those of us who DIDN'T do heroin and still ended up in the same spot?

[eee_n]

Sorry, can't help you with that one.

[eee_n]

Actually, just stay focussed, I think. Stay focussed and strong. I think that's the key. Don't allow negativity into your life. Stay positive.
Also, immediately cut people off who lie or do you any wrong. They don't deserve to have you in their life. This is a fairly new habit that I'm making every effort to stick with. It's difficult at first, but in the end, it seems to work.