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I'm gone and taking pictures for an anorexic site. Hopefully I've lost weight and they won't tell me I look like I'm 20 lbs over what I actually am... it's okay though. Bringing me down is a way to motivate me. Call me fat and I'll jog an extra mile. I'm not shallow... I just don't want to be weighed down by something as disgusting as fat. I'm not ( Read more... )

I saw Tasha last night and so far she's been the only one to instantly notice I no longer have braces. We sat around, drank.. smoked. Sterling bought me cigarettes. I haven't had them for so long. The night before last, I got drunk and did the best coke I've ever done. Sterling bought 2 grams for $160. It was expensive, but fucking bloody hell, was ( Read more... )

I used to think if I hung my arm or my foot off the edge of the bed, someone would cut it off while I was asleep. I always thought I'd lose a leg. And something must have happened while I was asleep one night. But I never thought I'd end up losing my heart.

I’m so exhausted. I saw Jimmyyy Ervin and Mitch last night. Me, Sterls, Christina, and Garrett were standing there for like ten minutes talking to them and then all the sudden Jim goes, “KATIE!” and gave me a big hug. I miss that guy. He got a haircut. I like it how Armondo poured a huge glass of wine for me before I even asked for it when we went ( Read more... )

Wow. Fucking bitch. Whenever Sara gets yelled at she finds a way to drag me into it and get me in trouble. What she was getting yelled at for had NOTHING to do with me at all. I don’t even fucking talk to her anymore. And right when I step in the door, my dad goes, “YOU BETTER NOT BE DOING ANYTHING FOOLISH AGAIN. LIKE SNEAKING AROUND AND HANGING ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven’t updated in a while. My account got suspended for a while, plus I just haven’t really had anything to write about. I got my braces off. Uhh… Sterling bought me a present from Catalina. I was excited, right? Well…it turned out to be a penguin figurine. The greatest thing about it is that you can open its belly and it has a secret ( Read more... )

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I feel like I’m not attached tonight. Attached to the world. I’m not feeling but observing. I can smell the smoke in my room and hear the constant hum of the filter in my fish tank, but I can’t feel the hot breeze from my open window. I see my curtains swaying, but I can’t feel the air. The lights in here are hurting my eyes, and I just want to ( Read more... )

I do not want to go wake up in the same old bed and eat breakfast in the same old kitchen. Every room in my house is the same, old and boring, because I have lived here too long ( Read more... )