all is nothing- no matter what you say

[eelster]

i could write for days about how much this is hurting me and how much i dont know what to do anymore and how much i just want to make up my mind, but that will get me nowhere. i am trying my very best to stay focused on a truth, yet i constantly find myself re-convincing myself that that very truth exists at all. i just want to run and run and run

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[sickinbed]

i leave for nyc saturday!