i just smashed my beautiful new pipe.
but i have always said the beauty of a thing is in its destruction.

i did not smash it because there was the slightest chance of me ever using it again. there is no chance at all. i smashed my pipe because i am in control of my life now.

today was reassuring. every little thing made me happy, instead of only one thing being able to make me happy. just eating pizza today made me so content ( Read more... )

i realized i am numb in my core and my emotions are just thin shells that cover up the numbness sometimes ( Read more... )

my goals:

honesty.
bluntness.

hopelessness.
pessimism.

poise.
brevity.

life = lame ( Read more... )

people need to stop lying and having secrets and talking shit in private.

people need to realize that i know a lot more than i let on.

and that i can be trusted.

i guess the only thing i'm glad about is that none of the drama is actually mine.

wtf @ today

[with the exception of free pizza, leah, and lindsey]

EDIT: [and lauren and fran of course]

the dixie chicks' cover of "landslide" is

unbelievably

tragically

beautiful

it leaves me breathless
& in awe
the kind of awe reserved for
miracles

this was the best summer ever.

SPRINKLES.

[first thought that popped into my head this morning]