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Jul 13, 2016 09:22

What prompts someone, after a year, to wake up and say "time to write here again ( Read more... )

love, faith, life, mom, death

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songquake July 14 2016, 03:31:03 UTC
I'm really glad to see you here again.

I spent a good part of last year being the moral support for my grandfather in his final year--he died in February. He's so vividly imprinted in me--in my parents' generation and among my siblings and cousins, too. I'm hoping it doesn't fade with time.

Compassion is both innate and cultivated. I look forward to hearing how you water and fertilize yours.

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effrontery July 14 2016, 23:51:20 UTC
I miss this forum. Facebook and Twitter are fun for slices of life, but I'm really grateful for the depth of this place.

I'm sorry about your grandfather. Since you do this as your calling, did you find it very different/difficult to care for him? I'm sorry for your loss of him, and hope your memories of him stay strong and that there are many.

Cultivating compassion--that's something I'd like to do more consciously!

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ratphooey July 14 2016, 13:17:21 UTC
Well, hello!

It doesn't matter how old we are, losing a parent is a hard, hard thing.

It sounds like you are navigating that strange new world with uncommon grace and thoughtfulness.

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effrontery July 14 2016, 23:48:25 UTC
You're too kind, thank you. I look forward to reading your journal and catching up (and I'm impressed that you're still writing here with consistency. That's pretty great.) The kids must be almost teenagers by now? Where do the years go...

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effrontery July 14 2016, 23:48:54 UTC
And I'm sorry if you've lost your parent(s), too. Life-changing, isn't it?

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ratphooey July 18 2016, 13:21:12 UTC
Lost my dad a couple of years ago. Sometimes it still hurts.

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This post covers a lot of ground. angledge July 14 2016, 17:36:22 UTC
What's going on besides the shingles?

Tell me more about your new relationship!

Good luck going back to church. Your recommendation to me (House for All Sinners & Saints) is sticking, so far.

Also, I've really enjoyed having you on Twitter. While it is obviously a limited platform, I appreciate the tiny glimpses it gives me into your life.

And now, an e.e. cummings poem ("in time of daffodils"):

in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why,remember how
in time of lilacs who proclaim
the aim of waking is to dream,
remember so(forgetting seem)
in time of roses(who amaze
our now and here with paradise)
forgetting if,remember yes
in time of all sweet things beyond
whatever mind may comprehend,
remember seek(forgetting find)
and in a mystery to be
(when time from time shall set us free)
forgetting me,remember me

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Re: This post covers a lot of ground. effrontery July 14 2016, 23:55:35 UTC
I was just thinking of you today. I know it'll probably be a while before I could make it out your way, but I enjoy reading your tweets too, and hope we get to see each other before our next decade. ;)

I LOVE that you're going to church at Sinners and Saints. Do you write about it here? I'd love to talk more faith journey stuff sometime--after putting it down for a bit, I'm really trying to be intentional about at least some sort of practice.

As for health stuff? The doc keeps coming up with new things--I have a mass in my ovary, she's concerned about my blood clotting levels (something my dad had to monitor), she's keeping an eye on my shingles--ugh. I think it's probably the stress of this past year+, mostly, so I'm trying to be intentional about stress release, too.

And relationship...THAT requires a beer and a f2f, I think. Let's just say it's deep and confusing and I'm trying right now to let whatever happens...happen. Love to you and your girl~!

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Re: This post covers a lot of ground. effrontery July 14 2016, 23:55:48 UTC
And thank you for the ee cummings. beautiful!

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