i finally did it.

i cut him off.

just for a month, but still.

i feel lost and alone but a little bit empowered at the same time, too.

and so now i just hope i can get through this and come out better and stronger in the end of it all.

wish me luck, and wish me strength.

this week has been rough. wednesday night i was up till 3:30 or so studying, but i finally gave up and went to bed cause i was pretty burnt out. so i went to bed but couldn't sleep. i was really stressed about all the assignments i still had to do and the huge-ass test i had the next day but hadn't studied nearly enough for, and dan's still on ( Read more... )

BB left about an hour ago. I have class at 3. and i have SO MUCH work to do this week so i really should be using this time to do some of it, but, somehow, i just can't concentrate.

I'm lazy.

and I miss dan.

It was strange to walk with him and not feel his arm around my waist ( Read more... )

have you ever been oddly attracted to someone you really didn't think was all that attractive, nor did you want to be with ( Read more... )

a fun night while the fun lasted. and now it's boring again, and I can't help being a little sad and depressed.

if only evan knew where that freakin party was.

and if only i could not think about a particular boy every single day.

oh, and in case you're interested, camping sucked. but now it's OVER and of that i am glad!!

The Backstreet Boys say it right ( Read more... )

I miss him. I really do.

I slept until 3 today.

mind you, I have a class at 3.

so I took a mental health day.

and I think it was deserved and maybe did some good.
i hope.

I miss him.

I just wanna go to bed, that's all i wanna do.

i'm exhausted.

and i'm getting fat.