an update finally

[egotistgirl]

okay, i know that i have been soooo incredibly neglectful with updating my ljl this past summer, but i seriously haven't felt the need to vent to any sort of journal. now that i am feeling a sort of numbness and void approaching and not to mention a slight hysteria, i feel it would be in my best interest to write a bit about what i am feeling since

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[fakeplasticshe]

I think you said it all... We are in quite similar states of mind so I don't have much to add but I just wanted to apologize for putting you through this... I wish I didn't have to leave, but since I do let's focus on the positive side of things my love. I will be back in a month or so and this time I'll have fixed the work situation, which will allow us to move in togetherrrrrrrr. I won't repeat my mistakes. I know that as we get closer to the end of the week, we are going to undergo quite a lot of fits of tears but I hope you know that happiness stands out. It's because you make me feel so wonderful and complete that I don't want to go. And you are worth a month of utter depression across the world from here. I have never felt so wonderful or complete and I feel so grateful to you for countless things I can't even begin to list here, but mostly it is for being you. I love you honey, we'll get through this month.

[egotistgirl]

awww my buddy posted a comment!! i didn't even know that you had written anything until i just checked it now!

how are you buddy? are you feeling less sad? im sorry that you are feeling depressed. i am feeling that way too. i am so emotional and sunday is approaching so quickly and i have been crying so easily. its so bad how much of a wreck i am over my baby leaving...i know that she will be back soon, but still.

i would love to come and hang out with you guys at your house! it sounds so fun and i would love to spend more time over there.

lets hang out soon, are you free this week? talk to you soon budddy

~Love, pattttz~

[silverwaves]

thank you. that entry gave me faith in love again. thank you.

[egotistgirl]

thanks for your comment. it made me smile.... ;) had you lost faith in love before?

[silverwaves]

maybe. i'm not so sure. i'm just so hurt. that's all.