just for the record:
i hate myself
and i hate my life
and there aren't many things i've come in contact with lately that i haven't felt that same exact way about. i just want to lay in my bed in my room and listen to music forever while i slowly convince myself that all existence was a just bad hallucination that i'm recovering from.

i want school to start ( Read more... )

okay. thats it. i might as well kill myself. i've seen bright eyes live and i don't have any good friends to live for. and frankly living for yourself is pretty useless with no one to share it with. i don't know what the FUCK torie's deal is, but if she doesn't stop being such a goddamn cynical BITCH i am going to stop talking to her. and i don't ( Read more... )

i am definately obsessive compulsive. look ( Read more... )

hokay, so. my birthday update:

FRIDAY.
i rolled at a covert opperations concert with torie hannah and corey. oh my god it was so fucking fun. any other chance i get i will definately be going. i can't even describe the happenings there, it was just.. fun. but some crazy girl on mushrooms fuckin took off in my tank top and hannah's skirt and stole ( Read more... )

i'm fucking stupid ( Read more... )

i just realized that i over-simplify other peoples problems and over-exaggerate my own.

i might as well not even be here. i've been thinking alot lately, and i mean ALOT. you have time to do that when you're me. i'm sick of being that girl that keeps calling. i'm sick of feeling like no one cares enough to call me. i'm sick of hating myself because thats how it seems like everyone else feels about me. I WON'T FUCKING DO IT ANYMORE! ( Read more... )

new semester.
more stupid kids.
more stupid classes.
i am just going in circles.
i fucking hate it too.
fucking HATE it.

GAH! i fucking hate tim. i hate him. everytime i turn around hes being stupid in some new, different way. so i'm sitting at mykes house today, minding my business, playing with a macrame necklace i'm making and josh anthony calls me. he just starts goin off about tim and how he won't stop calling his phone talking about how he wants to beat brad up ( Read more... )