No longer human
I think I needed to write something on this, and as everyone might noticed the cut or my Dazai Osamu profile picture, it's about the recent passing of Jonghyun. It came out as a shock to me and everyone else indeed. Depression is trully a silent killer, and I might not know how he felt about it back then, or how he even endure it. No I don't. But I know my mum used to suffer because of if when I was quite at a young age. I don't really know about my own mental state, but I can say that I'm just stressed. Nowadays it's the stress which lead me to spend more time on sleeping (which you might know, it's the symbolic of sadness). I know nothing about that loneliness that the late Jonghyun had to suffer (although I consider myself as a lonely being). But honestly, I think if I ended up somewhere in a foreign land I might experienced that loneliness too (this doesn't suggest the fact that I wanted to experience things. I was talking about my PHD 's life instead). I pity for the late Jonghyun, as well as the people he left behind. He must have been suffering a lot, but when I think those who couldn't lend him a hand, I was devastated. Then again, I don't really know what he had gone through, but I'm overwhelm with sadness.
Jonghyun ah, you will surely be missed by the people's around you and the rest of us.