Well I’ll be Damned if I didn’t update......

[eigen_vector]

Oh live journal, how I have neglected thee…….Well It’s about that time again. Yes it’s time for another block of self-serving, all too frequent, obsessive Journal postings……….until I burn out and become bored and move on to other preoccupations and negelect things again for another several months

Comments

[__batgirl__]

very powerful picture - thank you for providing it.

and nice to see you posting again :) did you get my email or is that an old addy?

[eigen_vector]

Yes I got it. Sorry for not responding in a timely manner. I've just been really disorganized.....and distracted as of late. My sorry little world is erratic. I'll let you know If I can entertain such an endeavor. As of now. No.

[__batgirl__]

fair enough - i will still send you the finalised info when i have it though, just in case you somehow can make it.

my muses have nightshade hair and razor wings

[exina]

I've been toying with an idea for a self-portrait, and a couple of things I wanted for sure were a pic of samurai sword fighters over my mouth, and a starving child over my heart. That along with an x-ray of my chest being exposed by two fairies with nightshade hair and wings of layered exacto blades slicing my body open down the middle. My eyes would be bloody holes in a screaming atrophied shrunken head, and my feet would be unglazed clay, chained in barbed wire to a cracked and abused world globe.
Thank you for showing me my heart.
*hug*

Re: my muses have nightshade hair and razor wings

[eigen_vector]

I'm glad I've contributed in some manner to something that matters to YOU.

Re: my muses have nightshade hair and razor wings

[exina]

Yeah, go ahead and get snotty about my reaction to the pic. Of course I was sad. So sorry not to get all shocked, weepy, or offended for your gratification.
I focus on the aspects that I can control, and my reaction to it because I realize I cannot change any suffering in the world. I can only express it, or expose it. Nothing will ever get better. I think it will only get worse and worse and worse.
But thanks for the image. It does mean a lot to ME. It must've meant something to YOU or you wouldn't have posted it. Thank you for sharing, no matter what your reaction to my reaction may be.

Well I was being sincere.

[eigen_vector]

You would be incorrect in guessing my motives and intentions behind my postings. I guess I would only affix that to the notion that you don’t know me very well at all.
Well to me its nothing more than a few words and a picture. They only have what meaning and power you give them. I’d feel surprisingly and overwhelmingly stoic as to the nature of anyone’s reactions to it. I’m not even sure the picture warrants shock. It’s something we all know for a fact to exist. Nothing new…nothing original.
To me it is only a representation of a small piece of reality…………a significant representation because it’s one that macroscopic culture avoids. It’s a sense of knowledge that we are denied in many ways. I like to contemplate such matters. I do it all the time. The ideals behind suffering are a philosophy all their own. For me the picture is not at all a manner of any extreme (felt) emotion. It’s an issue of knowledge and perspective.

[angelitica]

You!

*Tacklehugs!*

:) been a while yes? It's not a surprise the photographer killed himself. I guess there are rules to photography, not interfering with nature and whatnot? i suppose?.

It would be my nature to try to feed that boy any way i could, if it had been me, i know i would have carried him to the center myself.

Eh, i guess not everyone is like that. i guess maybe part of why he killed himself.

have you been going out at all recently? I certainly havent spotted you in dc!

[eigen_vector]

I've been going out a little in Baltimore........not much though.....I'll keep you posted.

[angelitica]

Please do, it'd be lovely. I just started school again so my social life will be whittled down to scraps of what I can salvage of my weekends when i'm not buried under papers, readings or projects for my internship. However if you're going to be making an appearance somewhere i'll certainly try to free myself for the occassion yes? take care.

Thanks for adding me

[pixidust02]

Thank you for adding me to your journal. You seem so genuine and insightful and real not like the cardboard cut out of the world.

~Pixidust02~

Re: Thanks for adding me

[eigen_vector]

Hey no probelm....I just noticed you added me first.....so it's all good.