Single and Unnerved
I am officially officially officially (those are not typos, I just did not want to use the word super) single.
I will not be somebody's little secret. I'm turning 30 in 2 years and I cannot be somebody's secret.
I'm a good guy, albeir flawed and given to sudden bursts of dancing and using baby-talk, but I am a good guy. I cannot tiptoe in some dark hallway not knowing if I'm about to bump into something or if I'll be walking on shards of broken glass. That dark hallway is not the path for anybody's heart.
I have my music, my art, my books, and most importantly my family and friends. I guess there are certain things I will have a harder time finding, getting, and keeping. And taking my own advice, I will just focus on what I have and not what I don't have.
Don't feel bad for me, I was only this quasi-relationship for 6 to 7 weeks. I mean we only saw each other once or twice a week, so no biggie.
The only bad thing I can see in hindsight was that I was consumed for those 6 or 7 weeks. It's a thing that truly passionate people have; an overwhelming and all-consuming fire that spreads across all aspects of one'e life.
Now that I am sure that the dating and romantic relationship aspects of my life won't be needing any extra attention I can go and redirect my fire to the other parts of my life...like writing and self-improvement.
Hay. When can I write something interesting and thought-provoking again?
Thinking/typing out loud.
I will not be somebody's little secret. I'm turning 30 in 2 years and I cannot be somebody's secret.
I'm a good guy, albeir flawed and given to sudden bursts of dancing and using baby-talk, but I am a good guy. I cannot tiptoe in some dark hallway not knowing if I'm about to bump into something or if I'll be walking on shards of broken glass. That dark hallway is not the path for anybody's heart.
I have my music, my art, my books, and most importantly my family and friends. I guess there are certain things I will have a harder time finding, getting, and keeping. And taking my own advice, I will just focus on what I have and not what I don't have.
Don't feel bad for me, I was only this quasi-relationship for 6 to 7 weeks. I mean we only saw each other once or twice a week, so no biggie.
The only bad thing I can see in hindsight was that I was consumed for those 6 or 7 weeks. It's a thing that truly passionate people have; an overwhelming and all-consuming fire that spreads across all aspects of one'e life.
Now that I am sure that the dating and romantic relationship aspects of my life won't be needing any extra attention I can go and redirect my fire to the other parts of my life...like writing and self-improvement.
Hay. When can I write something interesting and thought-provoking again?
Thinking/typing out loud.