[Oneshot] Cold Hands
Title: Cold Hands
Pairing: ShiChul (main), KiChul, CinHae
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Um...angst? Gay sex.
Summary: Heechul is being very cold. Can he possibly get warm?
Cold Hands
Cold fingers traced down the back of a young adolescent youth, slowly removing the fabric that concealed his tightened chest. Heat overcame him as his whole body began to burn up, flushed with excitement and embarrassment combined. His eyes looked up rather lovingly as these cold hands playfully slid down to his nipples, teasing them as they immediately hardened.
“Ah…” The boy let out a small moan as he felt the cold fingers massage his chest. He bit his lips slightly from the excitement as he grabbed on to the bed sheets beside him.
The hands moved down from the nipples to the buckle of the boy’s belt. The cold fingers hastily pried off the belt as they literally ripped off the boy’s pants rather hungrily. He felt the hands enter through the elastic band of his boxers, as he couldn’t help but to begin to breathe heavily his heart beating rapidly.
“Ah…ah…” He couldn’t help but let out soft moans as he felt the cold fingers clasped around his manhood. He was a young boy no longer as he slowly closed his eyes, feeling rather satisfied with such accomplishment.
The room was getting hot…very hot…as the cold hand began to massage him at a gradual pace. The speed began to quicken as the boy continued to let out soft moans as he clutched on to the pillow beside him.
“H-Hyung…” The boy breathed out to his lover as he saw a smile amidst the darkness of the room.
Before he knew it he had already came as he was suddenly turned on all fours. He felt his face flushed at the sight of his own cum sliding down his lover’s hand, only to watch a tongue lick up his remains. A licked finger was felt at the brim of his entrance as it pried itself through, widening the boy’s hole. He let out a loud gasp as the second finger joined, massaging the boy as it continuously went in and out.
“Ah…hyung…I want you in me…” The boy gasped only for his request to be fulfilled. He let out a small scream as his felt his lover entering him. “Ah….ah…”
“Mmm…harder…” The boy begged on all fours as he felt his lover go in and out of him, the pace quickening by the second. “Ahh…ah…”
“…I love you…”
The rhythmic motion came to a brief halt as no words were said in return. Then the rhythmic motion resumed its place to finish what was started.
The young boy had fallen immediately to sleep as soon as he had reached his climax. He hugged on to his pillow tightly against his chest, as a young boy would cling on to his teddy bear. The cold hands pulled the bed sheet over the young boy as it covered every inch of his naked body. They gently brushed the boy’s hair only for it to be abruptly pulled away.
“I’m sorry Kibum…” The hands apologetically tucked the younger boy in. “…but I can’t say I feel the same….”
--+--
Kim Heechul sat crossed legs on his bed, consumed in his favorite comic book. He began to feel a bit sleepy being slightly worn out from the night before. Yet he continuously told himself not to fall asleep, hoping that the suspense of the comic book would keep him awake. But he soon realized that he wouldn’t need the comic book after all only to feel something cold against his face.
“AH!” Heechul immediately dropped his comic book as he massaged his cheek to regain the warmth. He then looked up into a smiling cheerful face. It was a smile that only Heechul got to see.
“Hyung, I felt that you needed a drink so I got you this…” Kim Kibum smiled warmly as he handed the older boy a cold can of soda.
Heechul smiled back as he accepted the can. “Thank you!”
He opened the can as he took a long sip, letting out a refreshing sigh only to realize that Kibum was still there. “Is there anything you need?”
Kibum felt a bit hurt by the cold question yet he continued to present a smiley face as he shook his head. “I just…I just…”
Heechul raised an eyebrow. “You just…?”
“I just wanted to be near you…” Kibum confessed shyly.
Heechul responded with a soft smile. “Ah my lovely Snow White…whatever are we going to do with you?”
Kibum leaned over as he placed a kiss on Heechul’s lips. Heechul looked up into Kibum’s face rather expressionlessly.
“I’ll play with you later…okay?” Heechul forced a smile as he pulled back his comic book to his face. “Your hyung wants to finish reading this.”
“Ah…okay…” Kibum abruptly replied with a nod as he began to leave the room only for Choi Shiwon to enter with his hands behind his back.
“Ehhhhh!” Shiwon looked from Kibum to Heechul to the soda can in Heechul’s hand. “I guess Kibum already beat me to it.”
“Beat you to what?” Heechul asked, slightly annoyed by the interruptions.
“Well…” Shiwon immediately pulled out his hands from behind only to be holding a cold can of soda. “TADA…I brought you something to drink hyung.”
Kibum just gave a small smile as he left the room.
“In other words you lose…” Heechul said coolly as he resumed reading his comic book.
“I bet he didn’t bring you something to eat!”
Heechul brought his comic book down as his whole body began to perk.
“Okay…NOW we’re talking…”
Shiwon stuck out his tongue cutely as he produced a small box from his other hand. “I brought you cake!”
“Wah! Cake!” Heechul’s eyes sparkled with glee as he rubbed his hands together. Shiwon removed the cake from its box as he served the beautifully decorated cake to the older boy.
Heechul stuffed his face with the cake as he smiled at the sweetness of the taste melting in his mouth.
“Ah! You got whip cream on your cheek!” Shiwon smiled as he wiped the cream off of Heechul’s cheek with his index finger, licking his finger clean.
“Ew, why did you eat that?” Heechul asked in disgust. “It came from my face.”
“Hyung’s face is clean to me!” Shiwon flashed a smile.
“Bleh, don’t do that Shiwon…when you smile like that it grosses me out…” Heechul waved his hand away.
“Aw…why not?” Shiwon let out a small pout. “You always hang out with Kibum and Donghae, but you never seem to have time for me!”
“I’m a busy person, you’ll have to make an appointment,” Heechul finished the last of his cake as Shiwon continued to pout.
“Hyung is so expensive…” Shiwon let out a small sigh. “Makes me envious of Kibum and Donghae…sometimes I wish I was them…”
Heechul placed his empty plate to the side as he stared rather blankly at Shiwon.
“Sometimes I wish I was you Choi Shiwon.”
“Eh?” Shiwon looked up in surprise. “I would think that’d be the last comment to ever come from your mouth.”
“You’re tall…good looking…smart…handsome…everyone’s prince charming…” Heechul slowly hugged his knees against his chest. “…But most of all…you’re loyal.”
Shiwon smiled.
“Hyung…just by saying that…you had made my day,” Shiwon flashed his infamous smile as Heechul threw a pillow at him.
“Ugh, didn’t I tell you to NOT smile like that?”
“But you’re the one who made me so happy!” Shiwon protested.
“GET OUT!”
--+--
Lee Donghae lied down on his bed rather anxiously. He closed his eyes as his ears listened to the ticking of his clock. The boy began to bite on his lips slightly as he felt that he couldn’t wait any longer, the anxiety about to explode from his inside.
The door to his room opened slowly as a brief beam of light was visible. Donghae immediately pretended to be asleep as he quickly closed his eyes. Before he knew it he felt something heavy moved into his bed as a pair of cold hands wrapped around his tiny waist. The boy felt light breaths on the back of his neck as he couldn’t help but feel slight chills go down the back of his spine. His heart began to beat rapidly as he whole body began to feel hot.
The cold hands moved from the waist and down under the elastic band of Donghae’s sweats. He felt the hands teasingly massage his balls as his underwear began to feel tight around his hips.
“Ah…” Donghae moaned, as he couldn’t pretend his sleep any longer. He then felt the cold hands move from the outer layer of his underwear as it went in, cupping his manhood rather gently and firmly. Of course Donghae wasn’t new to this, as he the hands began to massage him rather fiercely just the way Donghae usually liked it.
“H-Hyung…” Donghae smiled as he shifted his head to the side, meeting the lips of his lover. His mouth invitingly opened wide as tongues began to wrestle with one another, saliva exchanged from one mouth to the other. His hands slid up into his lover’s hair as he began to massage through them rather excitedly, deepening the kiss exotically.
This was what Donghae always looked forward to each night. Of course he didn’t get it every night, but it was on the nights that he was lucky that his anxiety from the previous night would be fulfilled.
His lover had already entered inside him as he felt his lover’s hips thrusting inside him. Donghae felt his whole body overcome with an ecstatic feeling as he felt as if he was on the top of the world. The younger boy collapsed in his lover’s arms as he breathed rather heavily.
“I..I…I love you hyung…” Donghae breathed out as he hugged on to his lover’s sticky chest. Yet he did not received the answer he had yearned for from all the previous nights the two had shared.
All he received was a kiss on the lips and a pat on the head.
--+--
“Shiwon…have you ever made love?”
Shiwon almost choked on his crackers as his eyes widened in surprise. Heechul looked rather innocently at the younger boy as he hugged his knees against his chest.
“O-Of c-course not!” Shiwon stuttered as he felt his face begin to burn.
“Of course you haven’t because Mr. Perfect Choi Shiwon, on top of all his good attributes must still be a virgin.”
“You make it sound as if it’s a bad thing!”
“I’m not! I mean well with your good looks I wouldn’t be surprised if you screwed a woman or two.”
Shiwon couldn’t help but look appalled.
“I’m just kidding!” Heechul forced a reassuring smile. “I’m just playing with you.”
“Why do you ask me that all of a sudden?” Shiwon frowned slightly.
“Why can’t I?” Heechul frowned back.
Shiwon pursed his lips slightly as he rolled up his bag of unfinished crackers.
“If a person made love to another person…would it be abnormal for them to have cold hands?” Heechul looked rather blankly at the wall.
Shiwon frowned slightly as he pondered in thought. “Well yeah, it would because…hm, well, not that I’m an expert or anything…I’m just making this conclusion by common sense. When two people are in love and share that bonding experience of uniting as one-”
“Oh my god…uniting as one?” Heechul rolled his eyes. How greasy could Shiwon get? “Anyways…continue…”
Shiwon let out a small shy smile. “Well wouldn’t you think that their love would be warm and not cold?”
“I wish I was a princess.”
Shiwon looked in surprise. “I thought you already are…aren’t you? Cinderella?”
“Sometimes I wish I was pampered…I wish someone would hold me in their arms…and make me feel as if I’m protected…” Heechul ignored.
Shiwon stared at the older boy rather warmly as he walked over and pulled Heechul into his arms. He wrapped his arms around Heechul’s skinny body, gently caressing his fingers through the older boy’s hair.
“Is this good enough?” Shiwon breathed into Heechul’s hair making even Heechul shiver slightly. “Simba pampering and protecting his Cinderella…”
“…”
Heechul cried.
--+--
“Hyung the car has already arrived!” Kibum peered in from the bathroom door as Heechul was fixing his hair.
“I’ll be there in a minute,” Heechul grunted slightly. “You can go out first.”
The two were scheduled to film an episode of Rainbow Romance that day but for some reason Heechul was running late due to his hair not being the way he wanted.
“Ah…okay,” Kibum left the bathroom as Heechul continued to fix his hair only for another person to appear at the bathroom door.
“You’re leaving?” Donghae peered in from the door rather sadly. “We have a recording for Music Tank today…”
“Kibum and I can’t make it today, we have a filming schedule for Rainbow Romance…” Heechul’s eyes locked on to his own reflection in the mirror.
“Oh…so I guess I’ll be singing Kibum’s part again today…” Donghae pursed his lips slightly. “But it’d be better if everyone was there…”
“At least you get Choi Shiwon there with you,” Heechul replied thoughtlessly as his hair had finally met perfection.
Donghae frowned. “What does Shiwon have to do with anything?”
“Good question…” Heechul didn’t really know himself.
“Will you come tonight?”
Heechul paused slightly as he looked at the time on the wall. “Ah! I didn’t think I was this late!”
Heechul headed out the door only to feel a small hand desperately cling around his wrist.
“…Please?” Donghae’s eyes reminded Heechul of a sad abandoned puppy. “I need you…”
Heechul bit his lips as he looked into Donghae’s desperate face. The boy was practically a brother to him and to think that their relationship turned into such a distorted notion of need made even Heechul feel disgusted.
“Of course!” Heechul smiled as he ruffled Donghae’s hair. “I’ll see you later.”
Donghae smiled with satisfaction. “See you tonight!”
Heechul ran to the car that waited outside as he joined the backseat with Kibum. He flashed the younger boy an apologetic smile as the driver had finally departed to their destination.
“How are we feeling today?” Heechul asked the younger boy only to feel a hand slip up into his own.
“Please let me stay like this…just until we get to the studio…” Kibum squeezed the older boy’s hand tightly. Heechul responded with a light nod.
A few minutes of silence went by.
“Sometimes I wish…I wish I could just have you for myself…” Kibum broke the silence as he looked out the car window.
“…” Heechul frowned.
“Whenever I see you with the other guys…getting all friendly and touchy…I can’t help but feel so…so…so-”
“Don’t be a selfish brat,” Heechul cut the younger boy off.
Kibum pursed his lips feeling very hurt.
Heechul was well aware of Kibum’s sensitivity and the need of attention, but the older boy was getting rather sick of it. He was getting sick of always fulfilling that need of attention when he had his own needs to worry about.
“Look…pretend if you were in my shoes…how would you feel to have everyone need you and want you yet one person expects to have you all for themselves…what if you were the one of everyone? Wouldn’t it be unfair?”
Kibum felt his lips quiver slightly as he almost felt as if he was about to cry.
“Do you even love me?”
Heechul whispered his response into Kibum’s ear as Kibum began to shake his head in denial.
As for Donghae…Heechul didn’t go to his room that night.
--+--
Shiwon leaned back on the couch peacefully as Heechul leaned against him. The two had the apartment to themselves as the other members had other personally needs to have taken care of. Heechul smiled as he snuggled against Shiwon’s warm chest comfortably, feeling that he could lie there forever.
“Are you in a good mood?” Shiwon asked as he peered down into Heechul’s smiling face.
“It’s true that I’m smiling but when I really think about it…I’m in no position to be in a good mood…” Heechul continued to smile.
“I love how you never make sense, but for some reason I feel as if I understand you…”
“Do you really?”
“Yeah…I think…I hope…”
“No, I mean…” Heechul bit his lips slightly. “Do you love me?”
Shiwon paused for a brief moment as Heechul could feel the younger boy’s heartbeat quicken through his chest.
“Yes.”
“What kind of love? Friendship love? Brotherly love? Romantic love?”
“I don’t think I could answer…”
“Why not?”
“Because I’m afraid that my answer may ruin my relationship with you.”
“Would you sleep with me?”
Shiwon choked on his own saliva. “W-What?”
“Or am I not good enough to sleep with?”
“No, that’s not it!” Shiwon shook his head. “Well, uh, why are you asking me such uncomfortable questions?”
“Are they really that uncomfortable?” Heechul looked up into the ceiling.
“I fantasize sleeping with you every night.”
Heechul’s eyes expanded slightly in surprise. He looked up into Shiwon’s face as it turned bright red from embarrassment.
“You’re really cute Shiwon.” Heechul smiled.
Shiwon was too flushed by his confession to say anything.
“Do you want to make love to me right now?”
Shiwon twitched slightly in his seat.
“Y-Yes and n-no…” Shiwon stuttered.
“What kind of answer is that?” Heechul scowled.
“Yes because I love you and no because you don’t love me…making love is meaningless when mutual feelings are not returned.”
“How do you know I don’t love you?” Heechul tested.
“You do love me…” Shiwon looked into the older boy’s eyes. “But you’re scared to accept that feeling. You’re scared to let go of your boundless freedom…your carefree attitude…that oblivious spirit…”
“I hate how you’re always right…” Weak tears slowly formed in the older boy’s eyes as he leaned over, kissing the younger boy on the lips.
Heechul’s hand trailed up Shiwon’s face as he gently clasped on to Shiwon’s hair, pulling the younger boy’s head down…deepening the kiss.
--+--
“You didn’t come last night.”
Heechul sat in his chair in the dressing room as he looked into the mirror, seeing Donghae’s reflection beside his own. Donghae’s face was filled with slight hurt and rejection as he stared at the older boy through the mirror.
“I was busy…” Heechul hastily replied.
“But you promised…” Donghae bit his lip slightly.
“Things just come up you know…” Heechul scowled.
“Will you go out with-”
“No.” Heechul cut off as he turned around from his chair, facing the younger boy.
Donghae looked as if he was about to cry.
“I’m going to tell you the same thing I told Kibum…”
“…” Donghae remained silent.
“You are nothing more than a younger brother to me.”
Donghae left the dressing room with his sleeve to his face, concealing the heartbroken expression plastered on his face.
Heechul let out a huge sigh as he leaned back on his chair, only to see the one person he wanted to see at that moment.
“Ah, Shiwon, good timing,” Heechul stood from his seat as he grabbed the younger boy’s arm.
“Oh hyung, we’re up to perform in five minutes-” Shiwon explained only to be yanked out of the dressing room by the older boy.
Heechul stormed down the hallways of the concert hall as he stopped in front of the janitor’s closet. The older boy hastily opened the door as he threw the younger boy in, locking the door behind him.
His lips instantly met up with the younger boy’s, hungrily sucking the life out of Shiwon’s full lips. Shiwon helplessly kissed back being consumed by the sudden surprise. Before he knew it, Heechul was already on his knees, gently blowing on Shiwon’s erect penis.
The older boy rolled his tongue all over as he gradually began to suck excitedly, clasping the hardened penis in his hand.
“Ah…h-hyung…” Shiwon breathed heavily as he massaged his fingers through Heechul’s hair. He leaned his head back against the wall as he closed his eyes allowing the newfound pleasure to flow through his body.
Shiwon then paused as he gently jerked Heechul’s head backward. “Hyung…I’m going to cum…”
“Just do it…” Heechul continued to suck eagerly. “I want to know how you taste like.”
Shiwon couldn’t help but feel his face flush even hotter as he let out his cum right into Heechul’s mouth. Heechul smiled as he gulped the remains in his mouth, feeling Shiwon’s cum sliding down his throat.
“I’m so embarrassed,” Shiwon covered his face with his hands as Heechul pried the hands away.
“Let me see your face,” Heechul peered over through the dimmed darkness as he licked Shiwon’s face. “Was I cold?”
Shiwon shook his head.
“Was I hot?”
Shiwon shook his head again,
“Then what was I?”
Shiwon smiled as he brushed Heechul’s bangs to the side.
“You were warm.”
“SUPER JUNIOR UP IN ONE MINUTE!”
Shiwon quickly zipped up his pants as Heechul hastily wiped Shiwon’s remnants with his sleeve.
//end
Pairing: ShiChul (main), KiChul, CinHae
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Um...angst? Gay sex.
Summary: Heechul is being very cold. Can he possibly get warm?
Cold Hands
Cold fingers traced down the back of a young adolescent youth, slowly removing the fabric that concealed his tightened chest. Heat overcame him as his whole body began to burn up, flushed with excitement and embarrassment combined. His eyes looked up rather lovingly as these cold hands playfully slid down to his nipples, teasing them as they immediately hardened.
“Ah…” The boy let out a small moan as he felt the cold fingers massage his chest. He bit his lips slightly from the excitement as he grabbed on to the bed sheets beside him.
The hands moved down from the nipples to the buckle of the boy’s belt. The cold fingers hastily pried off the belt as they literally ripped off the boy’s pants rather hungrily. He felt the hands enter through the elastic band of his boxers, as he couldn’t help but to begin to breathe heavily his heart beating rapidly.
“Ah…ah…” He couldn’t help but let out soft moans as he felt the cold fingers clasped around his manhood. He was a young boy no longer as he slowly closed his eyes, feeling rather satisfied with such accomplishment.
The room was getting hot…very hot…as the cold hand began to massage him at a gradual pace. The speed began to quicken as the boy continued to let out soft moans as he clutched on to the pillow beside him.
“H-Hyung…” The boy breathed out to his lover as he saw a smile amidst the darkness of the room.
Before he knew it he had already came as he was suddenly turned on all fours. He felt his face flushed at the sight of his own cum sliding down his lover’s hand, only to watch a tongue lick up his remains. A licked finger was felt at the brim of his entrance as it pried itself through, widening the boy’s hole. He let out a loud gasp as the second finger joined, massaging the boy as it continuously went in and out.
“Ah…hyung…I want you in me…” The boy gasped only for his request to be fulfilled. He let out a small scream as his felt his lover entering him. “Ah….ah…”
“Mmm…harder…” The boy begged on all fours as he felt his lover go in and out of him, the pace quickening by the second. “Ahh…ah…”
“…I love you…”
The rhythmic motion came to a brief halt as no words were said in return. Then the rhythmic motion resumed its place to finish what was started.
The young boy had fallen immediately to sleep as soon as he had reached his climax. He hugged on to his pillow tightly against his chest, as a young boy would cling on to his teddy bear. The cold hands pulled the bed sheet over the young boy as it covered every inch of his naked body. They gently brushed the boy’s hair only for it to be abruptly pulled away.
“I’m sorry Kibum…” The hands apologetically tucked the younger boy in. “…but I can’t say I feel the same….”
--+--
Kim Heechul sat crossed legs on his bed, consumed in his favorite comic book. He began to feel a bit sleepy being slightly worn out from the night before. Yet he continuously told himself not to fall asleep, hoping that the suspense of the comic book would keep him awake. But he soon realized that he wouldn’t need the comic book after all only to feel something cold against his face.
“AH!” Heechul immediately dropped his comic book as he massaged his cheek to regain the warmth. He then looked up into a smiling cheerful face. It was a smile that only Heechul got to see.
“Hyung, I felt that you needed a drink so I got you this…” Kim Kibum smiled warmly as he handed the older boy a cold can of soda.
Heechul smiled back as he accepted the can. “Thank you!”
He opened the can as he took a long sip, letting out a refreshing sigh only to realize that Kibum was still there. “Is there anything you need?”
Kibum felt a bit hurt by the cold question yet he continued to present a smiley face as he shook his head. “I just…I just…”
Heechul raised an eyebrow. “You just…?”
“I just wanted to be near you…” Kibum confessed shyly.
Heechul responded with a soft smile. “Ah my lovely Snow White…whatever are we going to do with you?”
Kibum leaned over as he placed a kiss on Heechul’s lips. Heechul looked up into Kibum’s face rather expressionlessly.
“I’ll play with you later…okay?” Heechul forced a smile as he pulled back his comic book to his face. “Your hyung wants to finish reading this.”
“Ah…okay…” Kibum abruptly replied with a nod as he began to leave the room only for Choi Shiwon to enter with his hands behind his back.
“Ehhhhh!” Shiwon looked from Kibum to Heechul to the soda can in Heechul’s hand. “I guess Kibum already beat me to it.”
“Beat you to what?” Heechul asked, slightly annoyed by the interruptions.
“Well…” Shiwon immediately pulled out his hands from behind only to be holding a cold can of soda. “TADA…I brought you something to drink hyung.”
Kibum just gave a small smile as he left the room.
“In other words you lose…” Heechul said coolly as he resumed reading his comic book.
“I bet he didn’t bring you something to eat!”
Heechul brought his comic book down as his whole body began to perk.
“Okay…NOW we’re talking…”
Shiwon stuck out his tongue cutely as he produced a small box from his other hand. “I brought you cake!”
“Wah! Cake!” Heechul’s eyes sparkled with glee as he rubbed his hands together. Shiwon removed the cake from its box as he served the beautifully decorated cake to the older boy.
Heechul stuffed his face with the cake as he smiled at the sweetness of the taste melting in his mouth.
“Ah! You got whip cream on your cheek!” Shiwon smiled as he wiped the cream off of Heechul’s cheek with his index finger, licking his finger clean.
“Ew, why did you eat that?” Heechul asked in disgust. “It came from my face.”
“Hyung’s face is clean to me!” Shiwon flashed a smile.
“Bleh, don’t do that Shiwon…when you smile like that it grosses me out…” Heechul waved his hand away.
“Aw…why not?” Shiwon let out a small pout. “You always hang out with Kibum and Donghae, but you never seem to have time for me!”
“I’m a busy person, you’ll have to make an appointment,” Heechul finished the last of his cake as Shiwon continued to pout.
“Hyung is so expensive…” Shiwon let out a small sigh. “Makes me envious of Kibum and Donghae…sometimes I wish I was them…”
Heechul placed his empty plate to the side as he stared rather blankly at Shiwon.
“Sometimes I wish I was you Choi Shiwon.”
“Eh?” Shiwon looked up in surprise. “I would think that’d be the last comment to ever come from your mouth.”
“You’re tall…good looking…smart…handsome…everyone’s prince charming…” Heechul slowly hugged his knees against his chest. “…But most of all…you’re loyal.”
Shiwon smiled.
“Hyung…just by saying that…you had made my day,” Shiwon flashed his infamous smile as Heechul threw a pillow at him.
“Ugh, didn’t I tell you to NOT smile like that?”
“But you’re the one who made me so happy!” Shiwon protested.
“GET OUT!”
--+--
Lee Donghae lied down on his bed rather anxiously. He closed his eyes as his ears listened to the ticking of his clock. The boy began to bite on his lips slightly as he felt that he couldn’t wait any longer, the anxiety about to explode from his inside.
The door to his room opened slowly as a brief beam of light was visible. Donghae immediately pretended to be asleep as he quickly closed his eyes. Before he knew it he felt something heavy moved into his bed as a pair of cold hands wrapped around his tiny waist. The boy felt light breaths on the back of his neck as he couldn’t help but feel slight chills go down the back of his spine. His heart began to beat rapidly as he whole body began to feel hot.
The cold hands moved from the waist and down under the elastic band of Donghae’s sweats. He felt the hands teasingly massage his balls as his underwear began to feel tight around his hips.
“Ah…” Donghae moaned, as he couldn’t pretend his sleep any longer. He then felt the cold hands move from the outer layer of his underwear as it went in, cupping his manhood rather gently and firmly. Of course Donghae wasn’t new to this, as he the hands began to massage him rather fiercely just the way Donghae usually liked it.
“H-Hyung…” Donghae smiled as he shifted his head to the side, meeting the lips of his lover. His mouth invitingly opened wide as tongues began to wrestle with one another, saliva exchanged from one mouth to the other. His hands slid up into his lover’s hair as he began to massage through them rather excitedly, deepening the kiss exotically.
This was what Donghae always looked forward to each night. Of course he didn’t get it every night, but it was on the nights that he was lucky that his anxiety from the previous night would be fulfilled.
His lover had already entered inside him as he felt his lover’s hips thrusting inside him. Donghae felt his whole body overcome with an ecstatic feeling as he felt as if he was on the top of the world. The younger boy collapsed in his lover’s arms as he breathed rather heavily.
“I..I…I love you hyung…” Donghae breathed out as he hugged on to his lover’s sticky chest. Yet he did not received the answer he had yearned for from all the previous nights the two had shared.
All he received was a kiss on the lips and a pat on the head.
--+--
“Shiwon…have you ever made love?”
Shiwon almost choked on his crackers as his eyes widened in surprise. Heechul looked rather innocently at the younger boy as he hugged his knees against his chest.
“O-Of c-course not!” Shiwon stuttered as he felt his face begin to burn.
“Of course you haven’t because Mr. Perfect Choi Shiwon, on top of all his good attributes must still be a virgin.”
“You make it sound as if it’s a bad thing!”
“I’m not! I mean well with your good looks I wouldn’t be surprised if you screwed a woman or two.”
Shiwon couldn’t help but look appalled.
“I’m just kidding!” Heechul forced a reassuring smile. “I’m just playing with you.”
“Why do you ask me that all of a sudden?” Shiwon frowned slightly.
“Why can’t I?” Heechul frowned back.
Shiwon pursed his lips slightly as he rolled up his bag of unfinished crackers.
“If a person made love to another person…would it be abnormal for them to have cold hands?” Heechul looked rather blankly at the wall.
Shiwon frowned slightly as he pondered in thought. “Well yeah, it would because…hm, well, not that I’m an expert or anything…I’m just making this conclusion by common sense. When two people are in love and share that bonding experience of uniting as one-”
“Oh my god…uniting as one?” Heechul rolled his eyes. How greasy could Shiwon get? “Anyways…continue…”
Shiwon let out a small shy smile. “Well wouldn’t you think that their love would be warm and not cold?”
“I wish I was a princess.”
Shiwon looked in surprise. “I thought you already are…aren’t you? Cinderella?”
“Sometimes I wish I was pampered…I wish someone would hold me in their arms…and make me feel as if I’m protected…” Heechul ignored.
Shiwon stared at the older boy rather warmly as he walked over and pulled Heechul into his arms. He wrapped his arms around Heechul’s skinny body, gently caressing his fingers through the older boy’s hair.
“Is this good enough?” Shiwon breathed into Heechul’s hair making even Heechul shiver slightly. “Simba pampering and protecting his Cinderella…”
“…”
Heechul cried.
--+--
“Hyung the car has already arrived!” Kibum peered in from the bathroom door as Heechul was fixing his hair.
“I’ll be there in a minute,” Heechul grunted slightly. “You can go out first.”
The two were scheduled to film an episode of Rainbow Romance that day but for some reason Heechul was running late due to his hair not being the way he wanted.
“Ah…okay,” Kibum left the bathroom as Heechul continued to fix his hair only for another person to appear at the bathroom door.
“You’re leaving?” Donghae peered in from the door rather sadly. “We have a recording for Music Tank today…”
“Kibum and I can’t make it today, we have a filming schedule for Rainbow Romance…” Heechul’s eyes locked on to his own reflection in the mirror.
“Oh…so I guess I’ll be singing Kibum’s part again today…” Donghae pursed his lips slightly. “But it’d be better if everyone was there…”
“At least you get Choi Shiwon there with you,” Heechul replied thoughtlessly as his hair had finally met perfection.
Donghae frowned. “What does Shiwon have to do with anything?”
“Good question…” Heechul didn’t really know himself.
“Will you come tonight?”
Heechul paused slightly as he looked at the time on the wall. “Ah! I didn’t think I was this late!”
Heechul headed out the door only to feel a small hand desperately cling around his wrist.
“…Please?” Donghae’s eyes reminded Heechul of a sad abandoned puppy. “I need you…”
Heechul bit his lips as he looked into Donghae’s desperate face. The boy was practically a brother to him and to think that their relationship turned into such a distorted notion of need made even Heechul feel disgusted.
“Of course!” Heechul smiled as he ruffled Donghae’s hair. “I’ll see you later.”
Donghae smiled with satisfaction. “See you tonight!”
Heechul ran to the car that waited outside as he joined the backseat with Kibum. He flashed the younger boy an apologetic smile as the driver had finally departed to their destination.
“How are we feeling today?” Heechul asked the younger boy only to feel a hand slip up into his own.
“Please let me stay like this…just until we get to the studio…” Kibum squeezed the older boy’s hand tightly. Heechul responded with a light nod.
A few minutes of silence went by.
“Sometimes I wish…I wish I could just have you for myself…” Kibum broke the silence as he looked out the car window.
“…” Heechul frowned.
“Whenever I see you with the other guys…getting all friendly and touchy…I can’t help but feel so…so…so-”
“Don’t be a selfish brat,” Heechul cut the younger boy off.
Kibum pursed his lips feeling very hurt.
Heechul was well aware of Kibum’s sensitivity and the need of attention, but the older boy was getting rather sick of it. He was getting sick of always fulfilling that need of attention when he had his own needs to worry about.
“Look…pretend if you were in my shoes…how would you feel to have everyone need you and want you yet one person expects to have you all for themselves…what if you were the one of everyone? Wouldn’t it be unfair?”
Kibum felt his lips quiver slightly as he almost felt as if he was about to cry.
“Do you even love me?”
Heechul whispered his response into Kibum’s ear as Kibum began to shake his head in denial.
As for Donghae…Heechul didn’t go to his room that night.
--+--
Shiwon leaned back on the couch peacefully as Heechul leaned against him. The two had the apartment to themselves as the other members had other personally needs to have taken care of. Heechul smiled as he snuggled against Shiwon’s warm chest comfortably, feeling that he could lie there forever.
“Are you in a good mood?” Shiwon asked as he peered down into Heechul’s smiling face.
“It’s true that I’m smiling but when I really think about it…I’m in no position to be in a good mood…” Heechul continued to smile.
“I love how you never make sense, but for some reason I feel as if I understand you…”
“Do you really?”
“Yeah…I think…I hope…”
“No, I mean…” Heechul bit his lips slightly. “Do you love me?”
Shiwon paused for a brief moment as Heechul could feel the younger boy’s heartbeat quicken through his chest.
“Yes.”
“What kind of love? Friendship love? Brotherly love? Romantic love?”
“I don’t think I could answer…”
“Why not?”
“Because I’m afraid that my answer may ruin my relationship with you.”
“Would you sleep with me?”
Shiwon choked on his own saliva. “W-What?”
“Or am I not good enough to sleep with?”
“No, that’s not it!” Shiwon shook his head. “Well, uh, why are you asking me such uncomfortable questions?”
“Are they really that uncomfortable?” Heechul looked up into the ceiling.
“I fantasize sleeping with you every night.”
Heechul’s eyes expanded slightly in surprise. He looked up into Shiwon’s face as it turned bright red from embarrassment.
“You’re really cute Shiwon.” Heechul smiled.
Shiwon was too flushed by his confession to say anything.
“Do you want to make love to me right now?”
Shiwon twitched slightly in his seat.
“Y-Yes and n-no…” Shiwon stuttered.
“What kind of answer is that?” Heechul scowled.
“Yes because I love you and no because you don’t love me…making love is meaningless when mutual feelings are not returned.”
“How do you know I don’t love you?” Heechul tested.
“You do love me…” Shiwon looked into the older boy’s eyes. “But you’re scared to accept that feeling. You’re scared to let go of your boundless freedom…your carefree attitude…that oblivious spirit…”
“I hate how you’re always right…” Weak tears slowly formed in the older boy’s eyes as he leaned over, kissing the younger boy on the lips.
Heechul’s hand trailed up Shiwon’s face as he gently clasped on to Shiwon’s hair, pulling the younger boy’s head down…deepening the kiss.
--+--
“You didn’t come last night.”
Heechul sat in his chair in the dressing room as he looked into the mirror, seeing Donghae’s reflection beside his own. Donghae’s face was filled with slight hurt and rejection as he stared at the older boy through the mirror.
“I was busy…” Heechul hastily replied.
“But you promised…” Donghae bit his lip slightly.
“Things just come up you know…” Heechul scowled.
“Will you go out with-”
“No.” Heechul cut off as he turned around from his chair, facing the younger boy.
Donghae looked as if he was about to cry.
“I’m going to tell you the same thing I told Kibum…”
“…” Donghae remained silent.
“You are nothing more than a younger brother to me.”
Donghae left the dressing room with his sleeve to his face, concealing the heartbroken expression plastered on his face.
Heechul let out a huge sigh as he leaned back on his chair, only to see the one person he wanted to see at that moment.
“Ah, Shiwon, good timing,” Heechul stood from his seat as he grabbed the younger boy’s arm.
“Oh hyung, we’re up to perform in five minutes-” Shiwon explained only to be yanked out of the dressing room by the older boy.
Heechul stormed down the hallways of the concert hall as he stopped in front of the janitor’s closet. The older boy hastily opened the door as he threw the younger boy in, locking the door behind him.
His lips instantly met up with the younger boy’s, hungrily sucking the life out of Shiwon’s full lips. Shiwon helplessly kissed back being consumed by the sudden surprise. Before he knew it, Heechul was already on his knees, gently blowing on Shiwon’s erect penis.
The older boy rolled his tongue all over as he gradually began to suck excitedly, clasping the hardened penis in his hand.
“Ah…h-hyung…” Shiwon breathed heavily as he massaged his fingers through Heechul’s hair. He leaned his head back against the wall as he closed his eyes allowing the newfound pleasure to flow through his body.
Shiwon then paused as he gently jerked Heechul’s head backward. “Hyung…I’m going to cum…”
“Just do it…” Heechul continued to suck eagerly. “I want to know how you taste like.”
Shiwon couldn’t help but feel his face flush even hotter as he let out his cum right into Heechul’s mouth. Heechul smiled as he gulped the remains in his mouth, feeling Shiwon’s cum sliding down his throat.
“I’m so embarrassed,” Shiwon covered his face with his hands as Heechul pried the hands away.
“Let me see your face,” Heechul peered over through the dimmed darkness as he licked Shiwon’s face. “Was I cold?”
Shiwon shook his head.
“Was I hot?”
Shiwon shook his head again,
“Then what was I?”
Shiwon smiled as he brushed Heechul’s bangs to the side.
“You were warm.”
“SUPER JUNIOR UP IN ONE MINUTE!”
Shiwon quickly zipped up his pants as Heechul hastily wiped Shiwon’s remnants with his sleeve.
//end