In memory of Elsie Miller mother of Donna and Debbie, wife of Karl, friend to me and my mother and countless others.

This poor ephemeral memorial is all I can give in light of her death on 6/23/11. This and these words form Havamal…they bring me some comfort.

Cattle die

Kinsmen die

All men are mortal.

Words of praise

Will never perish

Nor a noble name.

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It has been a long while since I have but that has been due to me figuring out life with someone in it.  As many of you may know my girlfriend kati and I have been living together for over a year now.  It has had it's ups and downs, storms and strife, and it's moments of humor and love.

I have felt different and it has been hard for me to quantify ( Read more... )

Well it is 2010.  And life has had some significant changes for me. I have found out how I deal with the pressurse of a relationship, unemployment,therapy and school.  I did better than I expected and feared, but no where as well as I hoped.  I know I need to give myself credit where credit is due...but for me that is difficult.  I would like to ( Read more... )

Life is ...strange. I have an income.school an dlove and yet I am overwhelmed....it took talking with kati and with Marc...to figure out why. I am trying to take on too much responsibility again....nothing new there. But at least I am getting better at recognizing it ( Read more... )

An old Chinese curse that is...and the current state of my life. Not that it is all bad...but interesting is a good way to describe life for me right now ( Read more... )

Well things were rough for a while...and I finaly figured out why. Fear. There were alot of things that were making me afraid...and to those who know me...what is my internal reaction to fear. Three guesses and the first two are wrong...thats right I become angrier. IT started when I ame back from KC. I had an immediate problem with my bank costing ( Read more... )

Well yesterday due to fiscal and time reasons I put therapy on hold for 30 days. I was excited about it...the chance to see how well I had actually been doing. Today of course gave many problems with that plan ( Read more... )

I have realized that so few people use their actual power that they all have. they refuse to choose...to think and simple choose. I find it hard to understand...though I have undoubtedly been guilty of it myself. It angers and puzzles me as there are many examples of that power...Tank man last week was the aniversary of Tienamen Square....and a n ( Read more... )

As the  pic shows...I am feeling a bit giddy. I had forgotten how much I liked science...and medicine...and learning in general. I am enjoying my time at college greatly. And my lovelife goes well also. kati will be moving out here in late august/early september ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I have written...My time has been rare as of late. I find myself with new dilemmas...I have finaly recived my EMT cert from the state. Which is cool..bu tnow I have to find a job as an EMT..or two. Because I have grown weary of the Red Cross. Many minor things since Roy was bounced as site supervisor...but all petty and ( Read more... )