except that i dont like being this sad and disappointed and frustrated with my friends and my family and the world and whatever god there might be.

i want to hide and crawl into a ball and cry, but then no tears come out.

will never be the same after watching them with mer and max and singing along (like i do always) and rotating between them and being cold.
and that was AFTER we built a fort.
imagine that.

i am like mars. i am surrounded by planets and creatures that are similar to me and who should understand me but don't. there is a lot to learn about me that i keep secret and only people who do enough digging and rtesearch can find out. i'm relatively close to the other planets, but the distance between us is incredibly far. i'm second best to ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEIDSI ( Read more... )

tonight was awesome. the surprise went well. milos actually jumped backwards when he saw his twenty best friends jump out of his room. but i dont feel like he knew i was there. like he cared. and it's the worst feeling. ever. just to know that this person who i love so much doesn't show it back even if he does care, ahh. it's so crazy how things ( Read more... )

it's the same old thing with her. it always will be i think. i can't stand her and i can't imagine not being friends with her. she makes me feel like shit. she compliments me i guess. she tells me that it's not my fault i have so many friends. (i really don't have THAT many friends.) but she thinks i spread myself too thin, so that no one feels ( Read more... )

wow. crazy night. mer picked me up becuase she is a goddess. and i met her friend matt. yay matt and matt's crazy dance. off to new canaan we went and we got the BEST ICE CREAM EVER. seriously, you all must try it. they make it on a COLD STONE. woohoo birthday remix. cake batter ice cream is oh so rich but oh soooo good. and then we saw the best ( Read more... )

i should be napping.

you know you're paranoid when you start getting paranoid about your paranoia.

i was happy and now i'm having the down after the high.

i don't really remember the last time i was this upset, the last time i felt like there was nothing stable in my life. with everything with my uncle and the unveiling and the waves of pain that brings, all i needed was to hang out with the people i love and simply enjoy. so what do you do when four of the most central people in your life, including ( Read more... )

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