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Leslie...I love you...thanks for the advice. You help me feel better...lighter...more alive...more dead...anything that eases my pain. You are my aspirin...my clover.

-I must not be afraid to try.

I promise.

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Laying in bed.
Midnight.
Alone.
Through a small space...
Staring at the leprous moonlight.

Your Birthdate: February 16 Your birth on the 16th day of the month gives a sense of loneliness and generally the desire to work alone. You are relatively inflexible, and insist on your being independent. You need a good deal of time to rest and to meditate. You are introspective and a little stubborn. Because of this, it may not be easy for ( Read more... )

School's over for me. Ohhhh yes. I'm free. FUCK YES!!! I don't know what to do. Damn...I'm so excited. Good stuff better happen. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SHVATAHTAH...VASTATATATATATATA!!!!! Out To Strike, I Go...As Lightning.

     I slept for 17 hours...and wow...what a day and night it's been...I guess. I dreamt like a bitch...I slept like a hog...and my memory's like...oh...I don't know...like a...a...a...a...a schizophranic. I dreamt!...finally...I dreamt! Man...I miss it so much...my dreams...my subconscious thoughts. I feel so much better. School's almost over... ( Read more... )

   ...Ohhh God...those moments when I hear her voice...everything around me vanishes...I relax...as stubborn as she may be...I cannot describe the affection and love that I have for her.  I love her so bad...hehehe...I wish she was at my side...the mystery...the wonders...the desires. I'd go to hell and destroy the devils and daemons dwelling in ( Read more... )

I hate it when people look into my eyes...look into them and know what is of me. 

   I'm right here...watching everyone go down...not even knowing if I'm going down too. I guess I am. Everything is twisting beyond my control. The rail is getting slippery. My grip is fading. I don't even have control over what I'm doing...and yet...those around me...those I wish to hold close...are already falling -- or so it seems. What should I ( Read more... )