im in a car under fucking water with time to kill.

no matter how hard i try not to say the wrong thing, it happens. i have just been informed that i look like a fucking train wreck. thats great. why do i fucking do this to myself.  i set myself up for a greater fall. i apologize, but i know i'll never think anything else. he always takes me to ( Read more... )

im in a car under fucking water with time to kill.

no matter how hard i try not to say the wronge thing, it happens. i have just been informed that i look like a fucking train wreck. thats great. why do i fucking do this to myself.  i set myself up for a greaterfal. i apoligize, but i know i'll never think anything else. he always takes me to ( Read more... )

i was pissed earlier and sleep deprived. i was reading my calender and found some pretty meaningful events that went down.<3

found out i made a new fan for the academy is.. in the long run. i feel special.

im in a sorta good more.

.im.just.hopefully.hopeful.and.you're.just.hopeful.enough.

"♥"
forever and after

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yea i made my livejournal public. i dont write my details anymore BECAUSE I HAVE NO LIFE. but im still gunna do friends on somethings i dont want my mom to come across ( Read more... )

haven't felt like updating, and i still dont ( Read more... )

i havent been feeling myslef latly, and i'm convinced that i wont until nick's ungrounded. i cant wait to just let him come over and let him feel fine again. i need that. i miss being able to talk to him. his mom thinks it's only effecting him, but it's so fucking not. there's no way she could possibly think that. this women is fucking insane. my ( Read more... )

yeah today was bad, with a GREAT ENDING. i felt so horrible in the morning, so thank you rachel for listening. and then i went to vans and hung out with nick till 930. so yea. 4 and a half hours together outside of school. we went to the pet store and named some of the pets-to-be and then we went to the great indoors. we tried to listen to music, ( Read more... )

im sick of all this shit. me and nick arent aloud to talk to each other outside of school. im so unhappy right now for no reason. i miss him so much. every second we're with each other i wish it was longer. we stayed after school yesterday. and my mom tries to do what she can, but its not enough. today nick brought up how people make bad decisions ( Read more... )

im so fucking tired. making a new mix for nick.

.in.loving.memory.

"♥"
forever and after

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today was a shitty ass day. flat out. no one came. nick wasnt there. im not happy for some strange reason. so if anyone was to give me shit today i'd blow up.

.hello.i.know.your.wasting.your.time.

"♥"
forever and after

☆