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The year past
So lets see...
The big one, of course, was my surgery. I’ve gone on and on about it, rephrased it a hundred different ways to friends, family, and complete strangers, and still I cannot find the words to express just how much this has changed my life. It’s something I thank the gods for almost every single day, for giving me back my health and vitality, for granting me anew the will to live, to keep fighting. It’s a blessing purer than any I requested. And to everyone who heard me bitch, who listened and sympathised about back pain and pills and being weak and crippled, to everyone who held me while I tried not to cry or supported me through my moving homes and made the effort to stay in touch after my self-imposed banishment to Fife, to the loved ones who were overjoyed with me both at news of my surgery and later, when it became clear just how completely I’d healed - to all of you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Also there’s been the birth of my nephew, Cooper, the first male to be born in my family since his Daddy! Let’s hope that he grows up truer than that one, eh? XD
With my health came my interest in keeping it, and I’ve loved learning how to Belly Dance. I’m still very much a raw beginner, but I plan on continuing into the new year, and hope to add swimming, jogging, and more camping, now that I’ve finished healing.
And then there’s my crafty side. I’ve written more fiction in the last year, more poems and ... well... just MORE than I had in the last three years combined! While not all of it was good, I feel confident with my progression. Also the progression of my jewellery-making. I’ve focused a lot on teaching myself new techniques and each one has opened my imagination further. I definately plan on continuing that and hope to start selling again!
The year ahead
This is the resolutions bit, eh?
To try and dance for an hour a day. I was doing this at the end of November and the start of December but then the holiday season came up and I just... stopped. So I’ll be starting that again. And my arms and hips will probably ache for the next week. Oh well. If this changes to “swim” or “jog” then that’s okay too. It’s about taking this body that has spent years in enforced sloth and bring it up to par. I think dance will be the best way to achieve that, but I’m keeping my mind open!
To get back to Uni. This is the big one. I’ve spent such a huge part of my life studying and still don’t have a degree to show for it. And now not only am I trying to get back into university, but into a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT AREA OF STUDY! Some have told me to my face that this is insane, but a gift of those years of disability is that it left me with a lot of time to think, and I really do want to learn SO much more about Japan.
To clear my overdraft. I won’t mention here how big it is, but it’s definately scary. I’ve got a lot of debt from being a student what with loans and endowments, but if I can clear the overdraft, hopefully before resuming Uni in the Fall, then it’ll be that much less I need to worry about.
And that’s everything! For the first time in a long time I’m genuinely excited about the coming year. I don’t think I ever realised that I’d been starting the new year with such a heavy burden of trepidation and fear until now. Now the only flaw I have, the only thing left to fight against, is myself.
Happy New Year everyone!