deadinbed

[elaterite]

Jae, I miss you so much it hurts to think about you. You know, Jordan Catalano style.

I am still too ridiculous for words. Better, better, a little at best

This may have been meant for me, if I still had any genuine ME and if She'd bother, and my mother made me realize that my fascination with such devotions is almost parody - I have no faith, not in

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[ewigweibliche]

Given yesterday's thoughts in my head, this message is incredibly apt. Thank you for posting it. It will be much food for thought.

[dissonantes]

It's kind of new to me and bizarre and will take too much explaining to do right here, but a lot of times now, I'm sure I can feel this tingling, numbing pain (not in a bad sense) when you need me the most. Sometimes my heart even hurts, and I don't really know why, aside from the fact that I know that I need you and you need me. It's overwhelming at times, but I try to send some kind of comfort right back to you, and I hope you can feel it.

I genuinely believe everything is brought before us for a reason. Everything (that's all that's been proven to me in my 22 years). Our lives are not trainwrecks. It's fucking Heaven. You just have to find it. And you can, Elizabeth---even if it isn't perfect---even if it's far from perfect. Tune in. Don't find a way to deal with it. Find a way to be captivated by it. No one else can do that but you. No one.

I love you, so much.
And I wish nothing for you but genuine peace, finally.

[dissonantes]

"You have an old soul"
You're wise, little girl, wise beyond your years, and I dare say I think I am, too. Crippled with a logic that has none of the pragmatism it requires, too verbose to ever mean a damn thing, but there's something to me and there's something that I see...
I just have to find a way to revel in some unconventional, "misunderstood" joy instead of making it such a poignant, divisive pain.
I so took for granted what I'd do anything to have back: ONE genuine companion who GETS ME and my mindlessness and who I love thoroughly and absolutely, knowing you're no faker.

Thank you - I have printed this and will carry it with me. I miss you so badly

[dissonantes]

that was me, Miss ElizaVeth. roomate's computer.