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[elayissex]

I had this long talk with treavor last night, about trust - and how im completely petrified of it now, because truely when someone promises you something...and goes against it, what are you suppose to beleive? and well..who? - i dunno, im gonna be ok - i realize now that this is it, and to him - it doesnt matter. ofcourse it matters to me, it

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[__detunedradio]

I've poured my heart out and yet I find that I blame myself for things that were never my fault. I take blame for a lot of shit that is'nt my fault and it hurts in the end. I want to see this new chapter. I want to see this new 'Lydia' in a sense. I want you to be okay, and I know that one of these days, when you don't even realize it, you'll suddenly say "I'm okay" and when you do, I know you'll gain everything back. And that will be the day that you'll never look back on what has happened.

[kill__mequick]

hahahahahah thats what i did. iv'e taken over 3000 pictures and i only got in in july lol i deleted alot of the pictures though and my little sister keep playing with it so i have to like hide itmost of the time so yea lol

[kill__mequick]

ahhhhhh i don't even want to see the word "trust" right now... im having alot of trust issues with some people right now... {rolls eyes}

[__geekstah]

i love you lydia. you're expressing your anger. it's a lot better than pulling an autumn. keeping it all in that bag sucks ass ;D <3i love you.

[__geekstah]

at this point in time lydia, i don't give a fuck about anything. i've given up caring. i go to school just because i have to. i'm failing my classes. i'm turning into the person i hate. i can't stop it though you know? i just want to sleep all the time. my mum tried to like..get me into this group therapy shit. i'm like NO. i'm fine. i'm not cutting or anything so i know i'm okay. i'm just so sick of everyones/everythings bullshit. i want to beat everyone up. show them i'm a tough mother effer. -sighs- fucking ay. thank god it's friday. <3i love you more than dildos