I know a man who married a woman whose husband had died years before. He said the first year they were married it felt like he was fighting against a ghost ( Read more... )

Lying awake listening to the rain and thunder ( Read more... )

distraction is an obstruction to the construction
distraction is an obstruction to the construction
distraction is an obstruction to the construction

What's your major flaw? He asked. I lay there in silence, reflecting on the past few years of my life. I could pinpoint various flaws for various years, but many of them had faded away with time or effort. All I could come up with is that I tend to run, I tend to run far away and leave things or people behind, and not look back ( Read more... )

dreaming...thinking about things i haven't thought about in quite some time ( Read more... )

Darby said we are all just looking for a fairytale moment and thats why we play out our lines like we do and that's why we hurt like we do with disappointment when it's all over. In our optimism we get lost in a moment thinking it's the moment that will offer us what we are looking for. And then reality, with all it's flaws, shows up at our front ( Read more... )

Why is it when we make a mistake we let ourselves continue to spiral downward and make more mistakes? Why do we return to do the same things with the same people? Why can't we just choose to be different, choose the choice that will lead to a better life ( Read more... )

i can't believe i have LJ entries dating back to almost seven years ago.

Until you end up in a position you never thought you'd be in, you can't really understand how easy it actually is to do something you'd never expect to do.

Sometimes I get really nervous talking to boys, even when I don't like them. It's like I want to act normal because I don't like them, but then I get nervous about coming across like I do like them when I don't, and then my awkwardness probably makes me come across like I like them anyways. Somedays I just feel shy, and I don't want to talk to ( Read more... )