I guess there really is nothing i can do to make things right anymore. I've really tried. I guess i just fucked up too bad this time. Sometimes i feel like there is no point in going on, yet i do. My life is a broken record, the same line over and over, and nothing ever new. I dont know if i am feeling bad or feeling anything at all anymore. I cant ( Read more... )

wow, i feel like being random... last night savanna came over and spent the night. I love her she is such a positive person. I need people like her in my life. well, anyway, we watched invader zim, while eating the cookies that we made. I wore a damn blister on my thumb from hand stiring the cookie dough. thoes cookies were the shit!! i cried for ( Read more... )

oh god, i am having such a bad day so far. i feel used and abused. i dont think there is a single person in the world who truly cares about me. i hate people so much. i feel broken and alone. i want someone to love me and not care if i am the way i am. will anyone tell me that they do? DONT CAUSE IT ISNT TRUE!!! i cant stand being alone, but that ( Read more... )

Is it just me or does every one feel like they might be alone forever? Sometimes i get that feeling, i hate it. Even though i am "seeing" someone and all, i feel like he likes other people better. I need that one person in my life who i care most about, more than any one in the world, and who feels the same way about me. Yes, i know that is a lot ( Read more... )

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gee... it feels like forever since i fuckin updated this thing. well, my internet is finally working, and the power came back on saturday. i cant believe it... I FUCKIN WON INCUBUS TICKETS!!!!!!!!! it's so kick ass... i am sooo glad i am going, i wanted to go since they announced the concert on the radio, but i didnt think that i could afford the ( Read more... )

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I can't decide, do i love him. I mean love is such a strong word. I've only told one other that i loved him. I did mean it but, i feel diffrent towards Gil. It isnt the same love, maybe it's at a higher level, or maybe its just a diffrent kind of love. Maybe i loved him as a friend, and i love Gil as more, of course it could always be the other way ( Read more... )

My mom just doesnt get it. why, i mean i have one weekend every two weeks to do things that i want to do. No week days cause i have to "concentrate on school" a 7 00 curfew on sunday, and a 10 30 on weekends. I think i am in love, i cant tell because ive never been in love, but i feel like i never have before. I cried today. I feel trapped in here ( Read more... )

aw, Gil, you're so sweet! I think, i am obsessed with this live journal thing, oh well. I like you a lot, and i want to go somewhere, this week/weekend. Maybe it will be just you and me this time... If i could have one wish right now, it would have to be, that i wish i could find my true "self". Like everyone talks about finding out who they are in ( Read more... )