Some Days You Eat The Bear, Some Days The Bear Eats You.

[eleanor]

This is one of the latter

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[purejuice]

xxx

[eleanor]

The days before solstice are usually hard in me, regardless of any other situation.

Yes, I do have S.A.D.

[purejuice]

lights! festivals of lights! honest to god, that's what they're for!

[eleanor]

Chanukah is almost here! And this year, it coincides with the solstice!

[lolliejean]

I've felt like that before. It sucks. Here's hoping those kind of moments pass quickly for you El. xo

[ellen_datlow]

I know that saying things will change for the better doesn't help....but they WILL: you'll start making friends of your new neighbors and living in Brooklyn doesn't mean you can't see your friends in Manhattan! And you will will will find a job soon.

[eleanor]

I know all that. I also know that a lower population density, which I like, means it's less likely that I'll run into people I know when I go out. Yes, I'll get a job, but each day leaves me feeling less and less employable. And the only person I've seen so far with a reasonable travel time and easy commute was Valeria, who works near here.

Actually, friends in Brooklyn are a much bigger problem, since after Atlantic Avenue, the lines go off in different directions.

[eleanor]

They usually do, which (I think) makes them feel that much worse when they're upon me; the difference between feeling low and feeling high just seems so . . . dramatic. And I love drama when it's performed by professionals on stage or screen, preferably with good direction, but I'm an amateur.

[wild_irises]

How soon can you hang the living-room curtains?

[eleanor]

Deb, that’s a wonderfully practical question. Unfortunately, although I tried, I was unable to do it myself; it really requires at least a couple of inches that I don’t have. Bob has been attending to other priorities (like solutions to our lack of closets or bedroom window coverings) and with the death of Cardinal Dulles he’s working this weekend. I don’t know they’ll be up before next weekend.

It’s particularly unfortunate, since I have a phobia about barren, dark windows.

[mckitterick]

Big changes - even good ones! - are always stressful. It's normal to feel this way.

Hugs.
Chris

[eleanor]

Unfortunately, "normal" and "sucks" are not mutually exclusive. This is because I don not rule the world.

[mckitterick]

;-)

[mallorys_camera]

Change, even good change, is always stressful.

[eleanor]

And I"d been in the same place for 14 years. Why I thought I'd make such a big change without an occasional bad day is a complete mystery to me.