I feel like I'm fucking breaking. I'm moving in about a week and trying to be positive about it but I'm doubting myself. I haven't heard from College Dude in four days and I don't know why I care but I do. I hate when people just ghost and then I don't know if I'll ever hear from them again. It's so fucking shitty. Like even if he is just a FWB my ( Read more... )

You know, I never thought I would ever be the type to have sex that I would regret after, but I was so wrong. It's been like...two months since I broke up with ex-bf and literally any time a thought about the sex I had with him creeps into my head, it still makes me physically nauseous. I'm still so fucking disgusted with myself ( Read more... )

You know, I kind of hate having the ability to see peoples' true nature. Especially because I can't stand conflict. I have to act like everything is okay when it directly affects me ( Read more... )

Okay so, my lack of anxiety at the moment over College Dude is really, really troubling to me >.> I feel like something must be setting up to bite me in the ass. I'm still not letting my guard down but like, I feel like this whole situation should be making me more anxious than it is. Unless I really have convinced myself to just not give a fuck. I ( Read more... )

So I did end up hearing back from College Dude, apparently he was sick. Not sure if I 100% buy that but we've hooked up one or two times since then. The last time was on sunday, he got me off in his car on the way to his house, we fucked in the pool and then went back to his room and cuddled while watching a movie. We had plans for monday too but ( Read more... )

Well I finally did it. We broke up last thursday. We decided to stay friends. I think it was definitely for the best, his life seems to be looking up and it's so much less stressful talking to him now ( Read more... )

Okay, so, I still haven't broken things off yet. On the upside, he can't call me a hypocrite because I let the one year mark pass. And our anniversary post came up on Facebook too which was so fucking awkward. Especially because one of his friends even wrote something to the extent of "thank you for dating my friend and treating him right he needed ( Read more... )

Okay, I NEED. NEED. NEED. To break up with him, this is getting ridiculous. It's to the point where i'm getting angry any time he texts me. And lately i've been waking up to (no exaggeration), 16 texts, 5 fb messages, and then the other day he called me on fb video chat three times in 10 minutes (after I thought I had disabled video chat so thanks ( Read more... )

Hoooly fuck it's been awhile but I need to vent and the person I need to vent about follows all of my other social media so...here is my free rant space. And life updates ( Read more... )

I miss you so much. I don't know what's going on or if you're mad at me or just busy. I want to talk to you so bad and have a great conversation like we used to where we would talk all night until one of us fell asleep and then pick up where we left off the next day, but I have nothing interesting to say and I wish I did. I feel like you're bored ( Read more... )