trying to do homework... i can't not. it needs to be done ( Read more... )

........."opposite of what i need it to be."

today was the worst day... full of many things i don't like.

now i sit here still not allowing myself to break down because i feel it's my duty to stay strong to lead a good example to others who need me.

it's so freaking hard.

this weekend will be the opposite of what i need it to be.

So our open wounds will bleed ( Read more... )

i haven't cried yet today... well, not full on streaming tears anyway. confronted mom once again about how much her drinking hurts me... she didn't even care. blah ( Read more... )

well didn't get my car today, had to be taken back to get fixed again... proving to me to be a big hunk of crap lol but oh well... kinda makes me nervous to drive it once i DO get it.. but all the more inspiration to save up money and get a different car huh. the guy seems to think he'll be done with it by monday so i'll get it prolly by next week ( Read more... )

driving by myself is the best feeling ever ( Read more... )

finally got my license! i'm excited :) oh and to make it even better, i got the same instructor guy as last time so i got to shove it in his face... lol cept not he was nice to me this time ha ( Read more... )

i freaking hate you. you're such an ugly person... and don't even say you're not. you're 'oh so beautiful' but what happened to people being able to see right through you? i hate you so much don't you even see what you do to people? don't you care at all? why the hell are you so selfish? why can't you take the extra step where it's needed? why don' ( Read more... )

bleh.

this circle is pointless.

and i'm not liking the dizzying effects.

i feel so turned against, honestly.

jus gotta deal i guess...

all will be dealt with soon. one way or another.