had one last encounter with the one -she- calls "a god" -nothing special tho, just asb stuff ( Read more... )

life is shit.

i have to make a choice.

either way its ganna end up ugly.

i can suck it up for the next three years, and put and pretend to be happy.

or i can leave, and truly be happy, but lose it all...

but then leaving would cause so many problems that eventually i have to come back to.

so i lose.

no matter what.

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well first update inna while, i have been so busy and tired this week i cant even keep my eye's open. and tomorrow when everyone dosnt have to be in school until nine, i have to wake up at five thirty to be there at six. sometimes i wish people would appreciate all the things we do for them instead of complain of how it could be better.well i guess ( Read more... )

today was pretty crazy, the word about carol and jennifer was spreading like wild fire, im mean its crazy how fast word gets around and i didnt realize it but i to was running around opening my mouth uncontrollably (as if everyone had to know).well that was pretty much the highlight of my day other than that it was pretty blah, is it sad that i ( Read more... )

today: mother-son brunch, cosco, mall; express, clinique, grandmothers,starbucks;strawberry frap, home, starbucks again;valincia mocha, home again; isketch, hairspary, and livejournal.
-current caffine headace-

well i got into another fight with my dad and step-mom, they made me feel like shit when i was finally starting to accept my self. but now that i thonk about it-i could care less what they think and proud of myself and who i am, so they cant bring me down again, no matter how hard they try.

at mt.sac with my sister, hot as hell, save me

well today wasnt bad and it wasnt great, somewhat inbetween i guess you could say. i woke up at what i thought was 6.04, and it was actually 6.40 so i was late to a.s.b. and i felt like shit beacuse i wore my steve maddens at an attempt to bring them back "in" which failed. oh ya and, MY FUCKKING PROGRESS REPORT WONT COME IN ! ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ( Read more... )

welll the freshman posters today for the t.v land rally kicked ass, well i guess its probably becuse i desinged, organized, planned, and put together everything my self :) well i guess the rest of council did help-well at the last minute anyway when they had no choice but to help. im thinking of running for class president next year becuse all it ( Read more... )