nervousness

[elegantdreams]

Now that I am in a gallery officially, i am getting ready to put together what I need for taxes, stuff like that, i have already sold some prints, and if one of my paintings sells, my art will becomne an official source of income

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[elegantdreams]

it's funny, i cant even decide which one is better, or worse!

*hugs*
how are you doin anyway?

I understand

[rubye_tuesday]

It always triggers these feelings. You have to face those issues of "becoming a professional".
The good news is, unless you suddenly become Dali, with people clamoring for your stuff, you will continue to paint what and how you like.
I remember after the unitarian show, I thought my fortune lay only in the torn paper work. I turned out a zillion of them and haven't sold one since then!
Now I'm back to dreaming of painting.

I am so very proud of you and so impressed by your work. Please stay with it and if I hear of any new opportunities I'll let you know.
Love you to pieces.

Re: I understand

[pandora_blue]

*ahem* *cough* hard to sell things when no one sees them *cough* *cough*

Did you hear something???

Re: I understand

[elegantdreams]

pppppllllbbltt.
gee, maybe I heard a little duck, not sure.

Re: I understand

[pandora_blue]

I hope you know that was aimed at her and not you. I mean, for awhile you had the same problem, but you don't now, and she does. I love you ~N~!

[eclypsia]

Congratulations!

[elegantdreams]

thank you!!!!

[my_window_seat]

Be afraid. It's scary.

And do it anyway. Because you're brave.

[elegantdreams]

*hugs*
I think I will.

I'm sorry!

[anonymous]

I'm so daft sometimes. You know this is why I don't do my screenplays. Why is making money on something you love to do, embarassing? Then if you don't make money at it you feel like a loser, and quit, I can't even finish my screenplays, as what if, what if and then if nothing happens yeah, I feel like a fool. When what I really love doing is putting a bunch of words together and make stories that others can relate to, but in order to do that I have to finish, and put my work out there, spend money on domain names, paper, ect. But like all things, it is a business, and I guess separating the two in your head is what I think I am going to do, as I think all creative things can be made fun of. Shoot Barbara Streisand throws up before every performance. It's that little thing inside that says I'm a fuck up, I am a loser, and you know what I could become an acoholic, or I could continue to not finish anything. Really don't have advice for this but I think everyone goes through this, unless you are an ego maniac. In someways it is

Re: I'm sorry!

[elegantdreams]

It is funny, the best of the paintings, when i am done with them, i feel like they are not even mine, like they have painted themselves, decided thier own personalities, it is strange, and i look at them and think, i can never do that again, i dont know how I did it to begin with....and to imagine that I can do it on demand??? It is frightful...but then there are the paintings that are..well mediocre, somehow I always think, I know I can do better, why didnt I, it is like the painting never decided to inhabit itself, it does not have its own soul...not sure what that has to do with becoming professoinal, but it is the strangeness of my relationship to the artwork that makes it so hard, I never know that each painting will be right, not til it is done, it either stands on its own, or it doesnt...doesnt being a professional mean that you have learned to make each creation stand on its own?