Ugh

[elenatargaryen]

So I said I would post my Amy11 manifesto but one, I've been swamped with work and school so I haven't had time to get on the ball and just write.  Two, I actually can't (and before you dispute my can't argument allow me to explain) because every time I sit down to write about them, the tears just start falling and they won't stop. It feels like I'

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[karoliine34]

I just can't okay...I can't Sof, Since last saturday there hasn't been a day where I don't completely breakdown in tears, sobbing because she's gone, because she just had to be Amelia Pond and choose what she SHOULD and not what she wanted, because she shoose the father of her daughter and not the husband of her daughter, because he BEGGED her to stay when he never begs, because he felt a part of him die when he read the in the book those words "Amelia's last farewell" because he got angry in that moment because he refused to cry and be hopeless, he NEEDED to save her...
I CAN'T, I JUST CAN'T, THIS IS OUR LIFE NOW, SOFIA
IS GOING TO HURT FOREVER, I JUST KNOW IT WILL, Whenever I see a redhead, something blue (TARDIS blue), a bowtie, a mini skirt, a Pond, ANYTHING that reminds me of them, I will die all over again and know that this pain will stay with me forever ...

I don't even know what I'm saying but yes, basically we are BROKEN

[elenatargaryen]

I HATE MYSELF AND I HATE MY LIFE I'VE BEEN REDUCED TO BLUBBERING SOBS AROUND ALL OF THIS STUFF IT'LL NEVER BE THE SAME AN I'LL NEVER RECOVER, EVER.

[karoliine34]

I HATE ALL THAT STUFF TOO...BUT MORE THAN THAT I HATE STEVEN MOFFAT WITH A PASSION
I RESENT HIM AND I ALWAYS WILL, HE GAVE US A GIFT, A BEAUTIFUL SHIP WITH EVERYTHING WE COULD EVER ASKED FOR...AND THEN TOOK IT AWAY FROM US IN THE WORST WAY ;___;

[elenatargaryen]

don't plec yo self *sobs*

[femme_slash_fan]

*Hugs*

Oh sweetie. Fandom does this to me a lot too. Lucky for me, for once, I didn't get into the 11/Amy ship but I can see so many people on my friendslist still sobbing.

[ever_neutral]

Oh nooooooooo. But basically, this whole post. One has not known pain until one has shipped Amy/Eleven and then watched that graveyard scene. I made the mistake of rewatching the episode on TV last night. I THOUGHT I COULD BE A STONE BUT SOMEHOW IT WAS EVEN WORSE THE SECOND TIME???

And it just makes me wonder, did it hurt? Did she feel the pull of time and gravity jerking her away from him quickly but painfully nonetheless? Did she wish she could've hugged him or gazed at him a few moments longer? An in those last few seconds, what do you think he wanted to say to her? Or ask her? Maybe, just maybe, he wanted to ask her why; why Rory and not him? Why not them?

WHY WOULD YOU SAY THIS

[elenatargaryen]

I SAID IT BECAUSE I CAN'T STAY IN DENIAL; IT'S A CURSE AND I HATE IT

Also because I haven't even thought about how hard this is going to be for all the Amy11 shippers lost in an abyss of River/Doctor and all that entails...