a serious post that none of you will care to read. i promise.

[elevatordoors]

i am rightfully hated.an acquaintance of mine made reference to the fact that i am rightfully hated. i was taken back a little by that comment. at first. i then realized that no matter how you put it. i am rightfully hated. &i love it. i shouldn't but i get a sick little joy out of hurting people. im tainted, &i accept it. i could try to change it

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[djbluzclooz]

you have to accept yourself for who you are. if you like it, dont change it. fuck what people think of you. you have to live with yourself at the end of the day. just be true to yourself.

[elevatordoors]

i go to sleep happy.

so i'm fine. <3

thank you.

[cybizzorg]

to make mention that I don't hate you;;;
you exercise my mind. I like that.<3

[elevatordoors]

i didn't think you would be the type of person who could find it in them to outright hate people, so i never thought it that way of you.

yet again, you flatter me more. <3

[insanechristian]

Be carefull how you label yourself now because at some point you could be living up to that for just the purpose of the label rather then the idea that it is who you are.
~InsaneChristian

[elevatordoors]

Good point chris. <3

[libradot]

that's right, it wasn't a two-sided friendship. it was a one-sided one. as in, me being there for you and listening to you and giving you a lot of time, thought, and gallons of gas. i was more than generous because i wanted to, because i thought you were someone who genuinely cared about me. but when it came to me having problems or wanting to talk it was, "oh i'm sorry. let's go smoke a cigarette." and you'd drop me whenever it came to you. that's what i meant. and maybe you truly do care but you have a funny way of showing it.

[elevatordoors]

WTF.

dorothy HOW MANY TIMES did i sit there with you while you were drunk, sober, sad, happy, angry &talk to you? i listened to you when you were upset with your mother, confused about the opposite sex, happy about the opposite sex. i listened, just as you listened. i don't know what started all this but it's ridiculus.

i do truely care. i've said i have. still i havent heard how much you cared.

[libradot]

of course i cared about you. otherwise i wouldn't have spent so much time trying to keep up a friendship like that. i've just realized that the kind of listening you have "given" me isn't the kind of listening i need. and that you care more about a girl who doesn't give a shit about anyone but herself instead of a genuine friend who has gone way out of her way.

[elevatordoors]

you're blinded.