I need an icon, not for NO ideas, but when there are too many ideas...
TASK: Kitchen (counters, stove, floor), toilet, pulling the cushions off the checked couch to see if anything I've lost recently shows up in there, shaking the recliner (same reason)
On the negative scale of things, money sucks. There doesn't seem to be any viable means to make short-term money. Not that I can do, anyway. Not without lying. Technically I could go into Biolife or some such and just neglect to tell them that I was in Britain during the time of Mad Cow and might be a carrier, but that could possibly have long-term consequences, if I AM actually a carrier (which I doubt, but still) and I really don't want to be the Typhoid Mary here. And that would be all of, what, $60, $90 a month? Whoo. Not nearly enough. All the jobs that I've heard about recently are for apprentice welders, or store managers, or warehouse laborers and the like. I'm sorry, but BOY am I not going to do well at any of those, even if I miraculously turn out to be qualified, which I'm not. So I'll be doing a bit deeper digging this week and trying to find something useful.
Also on the negative scale, almost got into an accident on Valentine's Day with myself, Matt, Peter and Kayse all in the same car and myself driving because of some miscommunication between myself and another driver on the highway in rush hour type traffic. He says he was following (and yet trying to pass?) the semi that barreled past me. I waited for the semi, signaled, checked my blind spot, then started to merge over. As far as I'm concerned he wasn't there. Peter, who was looking out his window in the passenger seat behind me, says that this guy merged suddenly from the lane on the other side. We just rubbed a bit - my driver's side wheel well on his right bumper edge - and the only damage was a little of my paint wound up on his bumper. No one was hurt, including the drivers behind me, and no one got tickets or anything. So it's ok. Shook me up pretty badly, though. Especially since I'd just gotten my license renewed two days before. I don't even have my replacement license yet.
Also somewhat negatively, I've recently had reason to re-examine some of my failings, behaviorally, and where these actions stem from, and a great deal of them seem to come from insecurities. It's not as though they're entirely bad fears and such to have, but it IS bad to have them in such stupid quantities and let them control what I do so much. But they've been such a hard part of my life for so long that I don't necessarily notice when I'm doing something that corresponds to them. So I'm going to try and focus on conquering a few of my fears and not letting them rule my life so much. This... may take a while. Particularly my fear of letting people down and my fear of criticism, which often go hand in hand and make me not mention things that might be/are problems to avoid conflict.
To add to the neutral-suck side, I have been needing way more sleep than usual. It's crazy. I don't know what's going on, but while I don't need to nap during the day, I find myself sleeping (off and on, with allowances for insomnia) for between 9 and 11 hours a day, and still being exhausted when I go to bed, usually. Very weird. I'm going to try to start getting up earlier regardless of when I go to bed - see if that helps my overall energy level and such.
ON THE OTHER HAND... I actually feel vaguely accomplished this week. I wound up cleaning the mirror, sink and the entire length of the vanity the other day, and a bit of the tub as well. Started a collection of "things people have left here while gaming". Am thinking of digging out an appropriately sized basket to put them all in, since I have a basket collection. Did two loads of laundry, too, which is a feat given that we currently have one working washer and one working drier for the entire building. I hope they get that fixed this week, because I have a guest next weekend and I want my laundry out of the room they're going to be staying in, thank you very much. Otherwise I got around to typing up notes out of various books that I've been meaning to type up for ages. Planning on doing some more of that today if I can. Went grocery shopping, too, which was a good thing. Might make genuine french onion dip today. Got to hang out with Kait a little bit, too, which was, as usual, pure awesome.
TLDR; money/jobs/rush hour traffic/insecurites suck, I sleep too much, things actually got done this week
On the negative scale of things, money sucks. There doesn't seem to be any viable means to make short-term money. Not that I can do, anyway. Not without lying. Technically I could go into Biolife or some such and just neglect to tell them that I was in Britain during the time of Mad Cow and might be a carrier, but that could possibly have long-term consequences, if I AM actually a carrier (which I doubt, but still) and I really don't want to be the Typhoid Mary here. And that would be all of, what, $60, $90 a month? Whoo. Not nearly enough. All the jobs that I've heard about recently are for apprentice welders, or store managers, or warehouse laborers and the like. I'm sorry, but BOY am I not going to do well at any of those, even if I miraculously turn out to be qualified, which I'm not. So I'll be doing a bit deeper digging this week and trying to find something useful.
Also on the negative scale, almost got into an accident on Valentine's Day with myself, Matt, Peter and Kayse all in the same car and myself driving because of some miscommunication between myself and another driver on the highway in rush hour type traffic. He says he was following (and yet trying to pass?) the semi that barreled past me. I waited for the semi, signaled, checked my blind spot, then started to merge over. As far as I'm concerned he wasn't there. Peter, who was looking out his window in the passenger seat behind me, says that this guy merged suddenly from the lane on the other side. We just rubbed a bit - my driver's side wheel well on his right bumper edge - and the only damage was a little of my paint wound up on his bumper. No one was hurt, including the drivers behind me, and no one got tickets or anything. So it's ok. Shook me up pretty badly, though. Especially since I'd just gotten my license renewed two days before. I don't even have my replacement license yet.
Also somewhat negatively, I've recently had reason to re-examine some of my failings, behaviorally, and where these actions stem from, and a great deal of them seem to come from insecurities. It's not as though they're entirely bad fears and such to have, but it IS bad to have them in such stupid quantities and let them control what I do so much. But they've been such a hard part of my life for so long that I don't necessarily notice when I'm doing something that corresponds to them. So I'm going to try and focus on conquering a few of my fears and not letting them rule my life so much. This... may take a while. Particularly my fear of letting people down and my fear of criticism, which often go hand in hand and make me not mention things that might be/are problems to avoid conflict.
To add to the neutral-suck side, I have been needing way more sleep than usual. It's crazy. I don't know what's going on, but while I don't need to nap during the day, I find myself sleeping (off and on, with allowances for insomnia) for between 9 and 11 hours a day, and still being exhausted when I go to bed, usually. Very weird. I'm going to try to start getting up earlier regardless of when I go to bed - see if that helps my overall energy level and such.
ON THE OTHER HAND... I actually feel vaguely accomplished this week. I wound up cleaning the mirror, sink and the entire length of the vanity the other day, and a bit of the tub as well. Started a collection of "things people have left here while gaming". Am thinking of digging out an appropriately sized basket to put them all in, since I have a basket collection. Did two loads of laundry, too, which is a feat given that we currently have one working washer and one working drier for the entire building. I hope they get that fixed this week, because I have a guest next weekend and I want my laundry out of the room they're going to be staying in, thank you very much. Otherwise I got around to typing up notes out of various books that I've been meaning to type up for ages. Planning on doing some more of that today if I can. Went grocery shopping, too, which was a good thing. Might make genuine french onion dip today. Got to hang out with Kait a little bit, too, which was, as usual, pure awesome.
TLDR; money/jobs/rush hour traffic/insecurites suck, I sleep too much, things actually got done this week