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Healing is icky. It's painful. It's like scrapping out and opening up a scab to clean out an infection. In the end it still scars over. -
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I've decided to start going through a list of books to read before you die. Right now I am starting with Aldous Huxley's "A Brave New World." -
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I've been this broken person for so long, it's become so entrenched in my personality I think I'm afraid to heal. If I stop being this hurt person and start becoming someone else I don't know who I will be and that terrifies me. -
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Ok I meant to post an update, but I got distracted by the Writer's Block question here on LJ. It's about animal testing and got me all heated. haha
Anyway, so I started on anti-depressants and am doing really well on them. Still doing yoga, loving my dogs and volunteering at the farm animal rescue. I'm really loving the new church I'm at. It really ( Read more... ) -
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Dear God,
I know I shouldn't be saying this, but I have to be honest. I'm really angry with you. Why do you let the people who have hurt me most prosper while I am drowning in misery and getting nowhere in life through no fault of my own. Just because my family couldn't afford to help me out with school and theirs could I've had to work hard and ( Read more... ) -
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I'm trying really hard to forget I ever met you. I don't ever want to think about you or your awful girlfriend ever again. So, facebook if you could stop notifying me about their lives I'd really appreciate it. I don't want to hear what our mutual friends comment on your page or how much they love you and admire you. (If they only knew...) I don't ( Read more... ) -
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I've come to realize and perhaps accept that I will never find peace in this life. I need to see the disgusting people who do awful things suffer for their wrongdoings. Until I do there will be no closure for me and there will always be that looming blockade between myself and God.
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More good news from the people I know. My cousin and her husband finally have a little baby girl after years of trying to adopt. My sister just got into Cal Baptist after having to take time off school and she can keep her job while going to school. People who didn't have jobs finally got decent paying ones. I'm happy for them. Really, I am. I ( Read more... )
