i'm writing in here because i feel like i'm in high school.

i don't even know how to feel. it's so weird.

god it's getting BAD! i'm literally not doing ANYTHING anymore. at least, not anything productive. but i guess that's what senior year is for ( Read more... )

i'm excited about berklee, but how come i still don't feel good enough ( Read more... )

things that are still bad ( Read more... )

things that make me feel like shit ( Read more... )

horrible.

been a while. a weird while. i have too much work to be doing this ( Read more... )

bonjour from paris ( Read more... )

i got 12 hours of sleep. i feel lots better.

I'M SO FUCKING SICK of feeling hopeful. what am i waiting for? exactly. i have no idea. and the worst part is that i'm not even excited anymore. i'm not excited for anything. i feel like shit. i feel like fucking shit all the time, about myself, about everyone else, about the world. lately ( Read more... )