I feel like I should be in that straightjacket...

[eli_writes]

 So...the depression is getting worse.  This weekend did not help.  Friday, my roommate (that hasn't moved in) told me that she didn't have her half of the rent...which was already late.

I told her I could pay part of it so the apartment complex had over half the rent.  I figured they would look more favorably on us if we had more than half the rent

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[peppercatqp]

Art is a sweet (and useful) escape =P
Give in only to words and colours =)

Be careful about paying the rent for your room mate, make sure she doesn't get used to it and starts relying on you.

Keep going,
this is just a rough patch.

-PePPer

[peppercatqp]

P.S: Personally, I think you can't force yourself to write. When the muse knocks, you just let her in.

Words will flow when they have to.

But of course, goals are useful to beat lazyness (though I know it's not your case) and keep the quill fit =)

300/day is still quite a bit!

[eli_writes]

Luckily, my roommate is planning on paying ALL of the rent for the next two months. So I should be able to save up the money to get my car fixed. :)

As for the words...I am glad I am writing daily, I am just disappointed I am not writing more. I think it bothers me the most because I know that the depression is interfering when I know I could write if I had the time and the space.

If my apartment was set up right and my computer accessible, I would be able to write. :( The words are in my head, I am just not inspired to write a work where there are so many distractions. I need a fairly quiet place to write this newest piece. The POV is a new one and takes some focus for me to write. :>

I am keeping on with keeping on, though. My Aba (stepfather) bought me a stand-up easel, so I should be able to work on all of my art once I get the apartment organized.

eli.