Bzzzy brain

[eliade]

For the first time in years my head is full of thoughts that want to be put down in writing. My head was full and busy last night, a bee-hive. This morning after a restless sleep some of the bees have flown without me. The buzzing of the hive is less urgent

Comments

[trepkos]

Well, call me crazy, but I hope you don't get lice too!

And it occurs to me that some newspaper should be paying for your reporting on life in a shelter.

[shapinglight]

Seconded.

[ruthless1]

Thirdeded. Is that a word?

[mecurtin]

Indeed.

[kassrachel]

I don't know that mingling necessarily makes one a better person. I'd say: if it sounds appealing, then try it? and if it doesn't, stick to your comfort zone. You're already so far outside of what had previously been familiar that you're already stretching in all sorts of directions, emotionally and spiritually, I imagine. Just being present to what's going on for you sounds to me like one hell of a spiritual education; you might leave listening to / counseling / interacting with the other folks in the shelter to others, at least for now. At least, I think you'd be entirely reasonable if you chose to do so.

I'm glad you're getting twinges of feeling that you're in the right place. I hope that this turns out to be a good pausing-place and that good things are coming.

Here I am in a homeless shelter, broke and desperate, and there's still a large part of me that clings to any hiding place it can find, like a child determined to keep her unseeing head buried in a book while a fight breaks out around her.Well, yeah. That makes perfect

[loligo]

You're already so far outside of what had previously been familiar that you're already stretching in all sorts of directions, emotionally and spiritually, I imagine. Just being present to what's going on for you sounds to me like one hell of a spiritual education;

Yes, this! I really don't think that lice are a necessary part of the learning experience. (I am with you in ectoparasite paranoia; when we moved into our new place, we were worried that it had bedbugs, and I was hardly able to sleep at all. Luckily, we soon figured out that it was just Evil Mutant Super Fleas eating us alive in the night. Still gross, but easier to kill.)

[wesleysgirl]

I think there are times when stepping out of your comfort zone is a good thing, and don't feel qualified to say if this is one of them. A therapist etc might be, though!

[dovil]

Forget Paypal, I'm now thinking we can all sponsor a lice each for a $1 a day. They can be given names and we can exchange cards (I'm thinking you can be the ghostwriter, lice have terrible penmanship) and there can be an annual newsletter describing their travels across the groins of America.

I'm glad to hear that you have a Beryl in your life right now though I think it's more than understandable that you would want to bury your head in a book. Your writing remains brilliant and all things shiny!

(Don't forget Paypal - do eeeet!)

[tabaqui]

Ah ha ha, yeah, no. Perhaps, instead of lice, you could...um.

Well, experience life to the fullest in some way that does *not* include parasites and harsh chemicals and possible head-shaving.

*hugs on offer, 24/7*

[janedavitt]

Lice are a pain. My kids have had head lice three times after epidemics at school and I ended up with a couple since it was Mommy's job to deal with it so I spent two hours a night patiently combing through strand by strand and hunting the suckers down.

It's a hell of a job to get rid of them and a two-person job really; the shampoo helps but someone with a strong metal finetooth comb and good eyes is even better.

There are other experiences you can have to connect, truly :-)