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Apr 16, 2011 15:36

I talked to my brother for the first time today in about 15 years; his voice sounds almost exactly the same as I remember. I talked to his wife, too. It was a technologically challenged call, cell phone to cell phone with fritzy patches. Tomorrow we're planning to touch base on land lines.

This news article is about my mother's death. Details are ( Read more... )

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janedavitt April 16 2011, 22:45:05 UTC
I'm also shocked by the fact that this is one of several similar incidents in a very short space of time and a small area; what the heck is going on? It just seems unbelievable that these men would do this.

I'm so glad you got to touch base with your brother at least.

Even now, six months after Dad died, I can find myself in tears, helplessly swept away by grief and I'm not a person who cries easily or often. It's such a violent sundering of a tie to lose a parent or a child.

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rebcake April 16 2011, 22:54:30 UTC
When my sister died suddenly (a tragic accident, not murder) I had an overwhelming impulse to shave my legs, right then. My hands were shaking so much that I, of course, cut myself quite a lot. I have no history of cutting or other self harm, but jeez, all those awful feelings will come out somehow. How could you not have emotional episodes (breakdowns, as you call them) at a time like this? I only wish you were in a better place to express what must be expressed, rage not least. Be safe.

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flaming_muse April 16 2011, 23:05:15 UTC
I am so sorry. Of course this is impossibly hard for you, no matter your relationship with your family, and I am sorry you do not have the proper space and privacy to grieve.

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nwhepcat April 16 2011, 23:16:05 UTC
I missed the last few posts until now. I'm sorry to hear such terrible news. I hope you can talk to your case manager, perhaps he can get you some support systems going to help you through the emotional ups and downs. Grief on its own is hard enough to navigate for anyone, but shock and rage on top of it are heavy burdens. (Does he or the shelter have an emergency number? It seems this would qualify as a sooner-rather-than-later event.)

You are in so many people's thoughts. I hope you find a good safe place to feel what you need to feel, and find people who can help you.

I hope your conversation with your brother goes well tomorrow.

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kassrachel April 16 2011, 23:39:34 UTC
Breakdowns with no warning make sense to me. How else could one respond?

I hope the case manager is there; I hope he is helpful.

I am thinking of you with love from afar, as always.

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