Meme

[elimisteve]

Stolen from cacophonesque:

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list,

Comments

[anonymous]

I'm scared; I feel inadequate, mediocre, I'm afraid that the goals and hopes I have for my future will never be achieved because I don't have the power or capability of making them happen. There is so much I want to do and life is so short and I know I'm the one who shapes and controls it but I'm terrified that one day I'll find myself stuck at a place I don't want to be, just because I wasn't good enough. I think that the goals I have are too great and I know what you'll say--the Nietzsche believer, the Existentialist-- that it's all up to me and that I have the power and I can make it happen but sometimes I feel that all of that is just empty ideologies, there to make me feel better about my existence. I do believe them, most of the time, but there are times when philosophy just isn't enough. Reasoning only goes so far and beyond it lies the greatest fear; the fear of failure and I still don't know how to deal with it and I'm still terrified of life.

[anonymous]

The above anonymous post almost made me cry. Whoever this person is, there are countless times in a day I feel exactly what he/she has written. Any attempt at self-fulfillment or any action I take towards being more active always come up short, and I'm constantly left feeling like I'm not quite up to par. The future is absolutely frightening to me, and the goals I have seem like ones only fit for other people.