update on Sir S

[elionwhy]

Sir S is having a particularly shitty week. He canceled lunch on Wed. because he had too much work to do. honestly i was very hurt and disapointed. i had been nervous and got all ready and since i have today and tommorow off it was perfect timing. i expressed some fears about us - some lack of confidence and uncertainty. and i was playing

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I'm back...and maybe (just maybe) a little more sane

[tybalt_is_dead]

I've had an extremly stressful and good couple of days. I posted it in my journal.
I don't really understand about your lunch date. I need to read more of your previous entries. What the hell is blurty?

Anyway, I can relate on your weight issue...and the depression. I weighted over 260 for years. Then, I almost came to the end of my rope and decided enough was enough. I did just like mysticalhippie and chugged the water. Crystal Light is just as good. I also ran my ass off. (Almost literally) I still ate what I wanted, just ran it off. I got down to 192, then rediscovered pizza...and my intense love of cigarettes. I'm currently 232, but it took me two years to gain it back. I'll lose it again. As soon as all this current drama is over and my mind is completely clear. When that will be...I might never know. There always something hiding around the corner.
Sincerely
Jeremy

[brattygrrrrl]

I hope you're doing ok hon. I know this is just another terrible blow to your already wavering self esteem, just remember you're a wonderful and caring woman. I really miss talking to you on IM, so don't forget that I'm still here for you no matter what. Right now you need so much love and I'm still hoping with all I got that you get that.